Feel

I just want to feel,
The way you loved me
You in my arms.
The place you wanted to be.
I'd do anything to feel your touch,
Your hands on my hip
And your breath,
On my lip.
If only, we could
Go back to those days,
The times we spent together,
I'm sure you remember.
The crazy days,
And splendid nights
Our cute mockings
And the silly fights.
I feel you still
And I always will
You're all around me
I know you can see.
Am I a fool
Or plain insane,
Sometimes I fell
All I do is in vain.
Had heard that
Love hurts,
Never believed it
Until I felt it.
I want you,
To be happy and sad never
Cos no matter what I say,
Thats the only thing
Thats gonna keep me going forever.

I, Me, Myself

What do we live for? Money, children, parents, or for the one you love. Does anyone live for him/herself? Does anyone ever think that I'm doing this for my happiness and live the rest of their lives. I donno what it feels like. I guess first you need to be in love with yourself, and then think of the world. It doesn't mean that you need to be a narcissist and be obsessed about yourself. Just live for yourself. Atleast that will reduce the chances of you getting hurt, if not anything else.

The more you bank on people, the more are the chances of getting betrayed. Why base on your life on something or someone else. They call it "The Centre of Being". Thats whats you live for and thats what makes you want to live. Never ever base that on a person. It hurts to no end. I mean you came into this world alone and now why do you want to base your entire life for someone. Just don't depend on anyone for making you happy. Try to find happiness within yourself and you have the best life on earth.

I may be sounding silly here, honestly I don't know what or why am I writing this. I'm either plain bored or plain crazy. Just imagine, you are waiting for your friends to go out somewhere n have fun. They turn down the last minute and you feel pathetic about it. Thats what we don't need in our lives. There are simple things that happen right in front of us everyday and we fail to realise it. All we do is crib or cry about it. Yes, friends and people are important in life. But don't make anyone seem so important that without them you feel like a total loser. I've learnt it the hard way.

Get some "ME" time regularly. Focus on your thoughts. Go out for a walk all by yourself or snuggle up with a book at home. God knows if your gonna have this again or not. Loneliness is pathetic I know, but sometimes it therapeutic. You realise a lot of things. You can mend all the lose ends of your life once you find them. Do you feel happy when you look at yourself in the mirror? You should. God made you for a reason and the very truth that you have survived until now is enough for you to survive further. Just live for yourself people. Yeah, you need someone to make you happy at times but don't depend on it forever. Keep yourself happy and contented. Pamper yourself once in a while. It may be as simple as getting a haircut or a massage. Just make sure you do everything to keep yourself happy.

Find the Centre of Being within yourself. And trust me life will get golden then.

All Lies

I'd be lying,
If I said I dint love you
You need to have my eyes,
To see the way I see you.

I'd be lying,
If I said I don't think of you
Cos with every breath of mine,
I find you, you and only you.

I'd be lying,
If I said I don't crave for your touch
To find myself in your arms,
Gosh! I love you so much.

I'd be lying,
If I said that I'd move on
Thats surely never gonna happen,
Atleast until the day I'm gone.

I'd be lying,
If I said I don't miss you,
Cos no matter where I go,
All I find is you.

I'd be lying,
If I said I'd live without you
Thats one thing in this world,
I don't know how to do.

I'd be lying,
If I said that it doesn't hurt
My heart aches and bleeds,
And life seems like dirt.

I'd be lying,
If I said I don't need you
I'd rather survive without air,
Than I can do without you.

Some More

No matter what happens, what I go through, what I do.... I just cant stop loving you.

Well, this is the only one that is mine. I have a weird fixation for quotes. I have a huge collection of them n here are a few. Again, the topic seems to be love. What else can you expect from a Love FOOL :-).

  • You're nothing short of my everything.
  • Your words are my food, your breath my wine. You are everything to me.
  • Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart.
  • My heart is ever at your service.
  • Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to become lost again.
  • Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile.
  • If you love me only in my dreams, let me be asleep forever.
  • True love begins when nothing is looked for in return.
  • Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it.
  • If I know what love is, it is because of you.
  • If I has to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU.
  • As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you.
  • If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back theyd never ask you to.
  • Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime.
  • Don't let someone become your everything, because when they're gone you have nothing! ( Cannot be more true ).
  • And if it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart, the only dream that mattered had come true. In this life, I was loved by you.
  • Love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same.
  • Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful.
  • I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi or even smile at me because I know, even if its just for a second, that I've crossed your mind.
  • Just because somebody doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
  • Everyone says love hurts, but that isn't true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.
  • The only part of me I ever loved was the heart that you're in.
  • If a relationship is to evolve, it must go through a series of endings.
  • Love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction.
  • Love is like pi -- natural, irrational, and very important.
I love you so much that it actually hurts. Hurts pretty bad. Yeah, this one too was from me. I guess you all guessed that anyway.

Freedom

For the first time ever in my life, I'm feeling free. From the past year or so I have been carrying a bundle of burden on my head. Today, suddenly it feels like its no longer there. I have made umpteen number of mistakes in the past and I have realised it. I have changed myself into a person who will never ever commit those mistakes again. I can look up proudly and say, Yes, I was responsible for that and I do regret that. Accepting your mistakes will never make you feel small or guilty. Yes it may make you feel guilty at first, but you need to be strong enough to look beyond that guilt. I did that. Once you realise where you had gone wrong, trust me you will never ever make that mistake again. Its rightly said that "You learn from your mistakes". Even though I did not believe it before, I do believe it blindly now. Everything happens for a reason, and your mistakes are the reason why you are a better person today.

Life doesn't give everyone a second chance. When it does, make sure you take the right path. Optimism helps. Take things positively and you'll never be on the verge of making a mistake again. Learn from your mistakes and adapt yourself to the change. I did. And I couldn't be more happier. I have realised a lot of things for quite sometime now. I took it positively and now there is a 100% possibility that I would never go wrong again. At least in those regards. Now I know what freedom means. A big burden is off my head. Now, I can go ahead and lead a simple peaceful life.

I would say that mistakes sometimes form the building blocks of life. You get to learn a lot from them at every stage. Its also true that you will never realise a few things until it happens to you. Every single person in my life warned me against one thing. But I paid no attention to them and went ahead. It had not happened to me until then, so I thought it never will. I was naive or foolish, I still have to figure that out. I lost everything in the bargain. And when it struck me, it struck me so hard that it left me completely shattered. But I dint give up. The thoughts of everyone in my life sprang up at once. Why dint I listen to those people. They adviced me because they loved me and want only good for me. I did not bother to listen to them. That's why I ended up getting hurt and hurting them too. I did lose a lot of things, that I cant get back I know. But now I'm happy and sure that I will never lose anything again.

Now, that I have realised my mistake, I would never go back to that road again. I had had to know where to draw the line. Now I do. If this had not happened to me, maybe I wouldn't have ever realised it. I guess, this is Gods way of teaching us. I had read this book called "Five people you meet in heaven" some time ago (thanks Aru for that :-). According to it, every person in your life is here to teach you something. Even though you may not realise it, they are just present in your life to teach you something. It may be good or bad, but at the end of the day you realise something. The most important of the five people you meet in heaven. Now I'm pretty much sure of the 3 people I will.

Having said that, freedom makes you feel super content. Happy or not, again is debatable. Everyone should atleast once a day, sit down all alone and think of the mistakes committed by them. Accept your mistakes and come up with solutions as to how to rectify them. Once, you've done that, you'll feel so light. I did and I couldn't feel more free. Very few incidents in life change you as a person. Pick the right one and you've struck gold. Thanks to all the people in my life who helped me realise a lot of things and contributed in making me a better person.