Yippee..!! :D

First my blog gets selected for Word Press. That was enough to thrill me. Next, my post "Murderer" wins their first contest. The poem I wrote as an answer to someones' accusations has brought me so much accolades and happiness. I'm so thrilled and excited. Awaiting my gift now. My friends are all so proud of me and so am I. Cheers to me..!!

Life

What is the meaning of life?

“Taking pain,” said the nail.
“Keeping cool,” said the ice.
“Driving hard,” said the hammer.
“Being up-to-date,” said the calendar.
“Being sharp,” said the knife.
“Making light around you,” said the fire.
“Sticking to it,” said the glue.
“Being bright,” said the lamp.
“Being on time,” said the clock.
“Saving a drop,” said the faucet.
And best of all, “learning from it,” said the mistake.

Don’t be afraid to take chances even if it might get you hurt. So what if you dint win. You atleast tried. Just be strong and accept it because you might miss that single chance that would change your life forever and give you the happiness that you have always wanted.

Whats my Rashee


Just saw "Whats your Rashee". Nothing much to talk about the movie to be really honest. A good read of Linda Goodman's Sun Signs will do. I read that book quite some time ago and yes, I do believe in astrology. To a large extent infact. Every person is ruled by his sun sign. His/Her characteristics, body language, poise, ambitions, thinking can easily tell what sign that person belongs to. So watching the movie dint make any difference to me. I could have as well as guessed it.

Okay, so after watching the movie I did some research on my zodiac sign. The mighty LEO. I'm a true blood lioness. From the name of my blog to the tattoo I'm gonna get all is gonna be Leo. One look at me and people can guess that I'm a Leo.

A gist of Leo : Leo the celestial lion is the sign that rules the heart. That part of our anatomy in which it is said, many of our highest virtues reside. The Leo woman is the embodiment of honour loyalty, faithfulness, and trust when at her best, however, she must take care about her tendency to develop an exaggerated sense of self-importance. This has been my worst problem till date. I admit. The heart is the centre of the circulatory system, in representation the centre of life and, often the Leo women can feel that she is the centre of every life situation in which she finds herself. Again, this is one thing which has put me into trouble. There is one thing that most of the Leo women never falls short of - male attention. Okay, I'm not gonna comment on this one :-). She is one of those who love, respect and care for their partners, but don't expect her to worship you. I'd never do that anyway. Ambitious, crave luxury, used to flattery, commanding, dominating and a true blue romantic. These are the most important attributes of a Leo woman. So, here I am.

After the movie the only thing that comes to your mind is compatibility. So going through Leo's compatibility I found this.

Compatible Signs : Aries, Gemini, Libra, Sagittarius, Leo.
Incompatible Signs : Taurus, Scorpio (This explains a lot)

Something about the signs. They are divided into the 4 elements.

Fire : Aries, Leo, Sagittarius.
Earth : Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn.
Air : Gemini, Libra, Aquarius.
Water : Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces.

So the logic goes something like this. Me being a fire sign, I'll take fire as an example. When fire mixes with earth, the earth is destroyed. Fire triumphs here and earth is left to ashes. When fire mixes with water, water turns to steam. The originality of water is lost here and fire triumphs again. With Air, fire becomes hot air which can rule. Both have equal importance and blend well with the other. Fire and Fire will rule too, but both being hot can result in a lot of clashes. I believe in it, all thanks to the innumerable experiences I've had. Just for the sake, I'm putting compatibility of all other signs too. Have a check and find yours.

Zodiac Sign : Compatible Signs : Incompatible Signs
Aries : Gemini, Leo, Sagittarius, Aquarius : Cancer, Capricorn
Taurus : Cancer, Virgo, Capricorn, Pisces : Leo, Aquarius
Gemini : Aries, Leo, Libra, Aquarius : Virgo, Pisces
Cancer : Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio, Pisces : Aries, Libra
Virgo : Taurus, Cancer, Scorpio, Capricorn : Gemini, Sagittarius
Libra : Gemini, Leo, Sagittarius, Aquarius : Cancer, Capricorn
Scorpio : Cancer, Virgo, Capricorn, Pisces : Leo, Aquarius
Sagittarius : Aries, Leo, Libra, Aquarius : Virgo, Pisces
Capricorn : Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio, Pisces : Aries, Libra
Aquarius : Aries, Gemini, Libra, Sagittarius : Scorpio, Taurus
Pisces : Taurus, Cancer, Scorpio, Capricorn : Gemini, Sagittarius

These are sun signs alone. No moon sign or any other thing. Doesn't make a difference to me because for me all are the same. I told you, I was a hard core Leo. :-)

Leo being a fire sign and can survive only with fire and air. So now I need to find either a Gemini, Leo, Aries, Sagittarius or a Libra guy. Oh dear God, What do you have in store for me? So like Hurman I think I need to start asking every guy I meet, "Whats your Rashee".. :D

No BIG Deal

Has it ever happened that you have craved for something and waited impatiently for it happen, but when it does happen you think its no big a deal. Well, oflate only such things have been happening to me. I donno if something is wrong with me, or this is how it has always been. Its something like birthdays you know. You wait for an entire year for the day to come and when it does its like so what, nothing special. Hmmm kinda gets scary. It sometimes feels like been here done that kinds. So nothing else now has an effect on you.

When you have always wanted something, there should be a joy when you get it right. I did, and it made no difference what so ever. I thought that I'll be jumping up and down, or throwing a party, or shouting out from the roof tops but all I could manage was a "Cool". Hehe... :-). Maybe there are much better things in life.

Blew


I had seen 'BLUE' last weekend. And it took me more than a week to come up with words to describe it. The beginning is pretty good. The locales are simply breathtaking. Bahamas is one place I would surely love to visit before I die. They say that an average of 100 crores has been spent on this movie. It shows. The under water scenes are outstanding. This one would have been a blockbuster had it not lacked one thing: Screenplay. There is no story what so ever. I guessed the climax of the movie half an hour after the start. And that automatically makes a movie boring.

The movie could have been really better if atleast the dialogues were in place. In midst of a shooting sequence, Lara blurts out "Goli math chalao, Baat cheet se sab hal hosakta hai". I was like what the f***. Am I watching a movie in the 80's.

The music is actually good, considering the fact that it is Rehman the genius. The starting credit song is simple n nice. 'Aaj dil Ghustakh' is very catchy and shot beautifully. 'Chiggy Whiggy' is good with a super bleached Kylie Minogue. The title track is amazing. Simply superb.

Now coming to the cast, Akshay looks super hot as the notorious, shrewd, eyebrow slashed, baddie businessman. His dressing sense in the movie is super fantastic. Crisp white pants and shirts with colourful jackets and shoes. He makes the clothes look good. Lara oozes oomph in every scene. She's amazingly hot. Her well toned body was well preserved to be first shown in this movie. I feel that she is the best Indian actress who can pull of a bikini with such elan and comfort. Its a pity that much cant be told about her acting skills. She's put in the movie to drag the male crowd and it shows why. She's gorgeous. Sanjay Dutt excels in acting but I don't get why did they have to give him a paunch in the movie. I always thought that he was a fit guy. The movie could have done without Zayed Khan as well. Confused looks behind a helmet is all what he has got to do. Yeah Katrina, is there too. She looks totally out of place and she is out to prove that she cant act to save her life.

The movie lives up to its name though. Its blue all the way. Not all that bad, but doesn't live up to the expectations. Watch it for the beautiful sights and yes Lara of course.

Someone


My hundredth post had to be special. As 'Dil toh pagal hai' said, "Somewhere someone is made for you".

Somewhere
Someone is very proud of you
Someone is thinking of you
Someone cares about you
Someone misses you
Someone wants to talk to you
Someone wants to be with you
Someone hopes you aren't in trouble
Someone is thankful for the support you have provided
Someone wants to hold your hand
Someone hopes everything turns out all right
Someone wants you to be happy
Someone wants you to find them
Someone is celebrating your successes
Someone wants to give you a gift
Someone thinks you are the gift
Someone hopes you are not too cold, or too hot
Someone wants to hug you
Someone loves you
Someone wants to lavish you with small gifts
Someone admires your strength
Someone is thinking of you and smiling
Someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on
Someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun
Someone thinks the world of you
Someone wants to give you everything you want
Someone wants to protect you
Someone would do anything for you
Someone would do anything to have you
Someone wants to be forgiven
Someone is grateful for your forgiveness
Someone wants to laugh with you about old times
Someone remembers you and wishes you were there
Someone is praising God for you
Someone needs you to know that their love is unconditional
Someone values your advice
Someone wants to tell you how much they care
Someone wants to stay up watching old movies with you
Someone wants to share their dreams with you
Someone wants to hold you in their arms
Someone wants you to hold them in your arms
Someone treasures your spirit
Someone wishes they could stop time because of you
Someone praises God for your friendship and love
Someone can't wait to see you
Someone wishes that things didn't have to change
Someone loves you for who you are
Someone loves the way you make them feel
Someone wants to be with you
Someone is hoping they can grow old with you
Someone hears a song that reminds them of you
Someone wants you to know they are there for you
Someone is glad that you're their friend
Someone wants to be your friend
Someone stayed up all night thinking about you
Someone is alive because of you
Someone is remorseful after losing your friendship
Someone is wishing that you would notice them
Someone wants to get to know you better
Someone believes that you are their soul mate
Someone wants to be near you
Someone misses your guidance and advice
Someone values your guidance and advice
Someone has faith in you
Someone trusts you
Someone wants to support you
Someone needs your support
Someone thinks that you're the world for them
Someone needs you to have faith in them
Someone needs you to let them be your friend

And last but not the least,
Someone is surely made for you and only you.

So, Never feel or be alone. There is a always a someone for everyone.

Believe

The first time I heard this song was about 8-10 years ago. But it only seems to make sense now. God bless you Cher, Amazing piece of work.!!

No matter how hard I try
You keep pushing me aside
And I can't break through
There's no talking to you
It's so sad that you're leaving
It takes time to believe it
But after all is said and done
You're gonna be the lonely one

Do you believe in life after love
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough
Do you believe in life after love
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough

What am I supposed to do
Sit around and wait for you
Well I can't do that
And there's no turning back
I need time to move on
I need a love to feel strong
'Cause I've got time to think it through
And maybe I'm too good for you

Do you believe in life after love
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough
Do you believe in life after love
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough

Well I know that I'll get through this
'Cause I know that I am strong
I don't need you anymore
I don't need you anymore
I don't need you anymore
No I don't need you anymore

Do you believe in life after love
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough
Do you believe in life after love
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough
Do you believe in life after love
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough
Do you believe in life after love
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough

Oh!! So Hrithik


Just saw a promo of 'Kites' last night. If it was possible I would just hunt down Hrithik and eat him. Ohhh man.. He's smoking hot. I have always found him sexy right from his 'Kaho na Pyaar hai' days. Later he seemed to lose his charm. Then he came with a bang in 'Dhoom 2'. He's super amazing. The perfect Indian metrosexual male. Ohh man I just cant stop gushing about him. How on earth can any one be soooo goodlooking and be so modest inspite of that. His formal suited look in last months GQ magazine was so so so gorgeous. His pointed chin, extra long nose, super short torso n super long legs. They are so imperfect but that just adds to his perfection. His portrayal of Akbar in 'Jodhaa Akbar' was breathtaking. I have seen the movie thrice already.

But 'Kites' seems to be a entire new story. His look is to die for in that. The perfect cuts in his abs is any woman's dreams and every man's envy. Barbara Mori seems to be having a lot of fun out there. Why wouldn't she. Just look at the pic above. Its soooo cute. I wish I had a pic of mine with my boyfriend like that. Next time I surely will :P.

As of now, Hrithik you rock!! Suzanne sure is one hell of a lucky lady.

Lyrical

Had never listened to the song 'Jhonkaa hawa ka' from Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam so clearly before. Its simply amazing. The lyrics are mind blowing. Having said that do we now have any song that has meaningful lyrics. Hardly a few. Music is supposed to capture the soul, not make it cringe. Here a few of my favourite recent songs which has some great lyrics.

1. Tujh me Rab dikhta hai - Rabne bana di jodi
2. Pehli baar mohabbat - Kaminey
3. Haafiz Khuda - Tasveer 8x10
4. Aaj din chaddeya - Love Aaj Kal
5. Iktara - Wake up Sid
6. Rehna tu - Delhi 6
7. Aare Aare - Newyork

The worse lyrics for me still remains, Dil dance maare from Tashan.

Refreshing


Just saw 'Wake up Sid' after work today. After a long time seeing a fresh new story. All the bollywood movies so far has been only mush mush. Minus Kaminey ofcourse. But 'Wake up Sid' has its heart in the right place. Not extremely good, but it feels nice that bollywood is open to change.

In my mind I couldnt figure out anyone else who could play the lazy bum Sid, better than Ranbir. After the casanova act in 'Bachna ae Haseeno', he eats, breathes and drinks the character Sid. I have always felt that he looks very feminine, more so like his mother. Pansy, you can say. But his act in this movie is extreme fun. You can identify yourself with him easily. Konkana is superb. Her eyes speak volumes. She is one of the finest actress we have in our industry. The non sexual love story just warms your heart. Rahul Khanna in his brief role looks hot..!! But I don't understand his need to play the loser. After 'Love aaj kal' this one too.

A special mention has to be made to the characters 'Rishi' and 'Laxmi' who play Sid's best friends. They are amazing. Friends ho toh aisi. I just dint get the need of the hot sexy neighbour played by Kasmera Shah in the script. She has an ugly face and an ugly body. Someone needs to tell her that. Rest of the characters are beautifully etched especially, Anupam Kher who plays Sid's father. His emotions can never be copied. He's simply superb.

All in love a cool refreshing movie. And Ranbir is a great actor, its sad that much cant be said about his looks. But why should that matter. He has Deepika anyway..!!

Him'Ace' Bhai

"Mann ka Radio bhajne de zara, Gham ko bhulkar jeele tu zara". Why would you want to torture us with your voice Himesh? Why? Even after receiving more than enough flak for your movie 'Karzzzzzz' ( I hope I got the number of 'z's right ), you still want to act in movies. Man thats quite some optimism you have eh. Just one question, while singing the above mentioned song, where on earth are you looking? God save you and your fultu attitude.

I'm Alive

The last week was one of the worst week of my life. Stressful work, problems with friends, no rest and fever. I barely had time for myself or for my family. Its been more than a year since my breakup and I used to feel that it is the end of my life. I ignored all the positives and highlighted the negatives and based my life on it. I went into a cocoon and alienated myself from my family and friends. I was like no him, no life. Cant believe I thought like that.

Today dad sat me down and asked me what was bothering me. When you are low and someone asks you something, you obviously blurt it out. I told my dad about everything. I was sobbing in his arms when he just told me one thing. "This is life kid, and you are my daughter. You are not allowed to give up this easily". I was like wow. My daddy is the best. My parents without a doubt are the most coolest in the planet. I have no time limits to get back home, I can go wherever n whenever I want, I can wear anything I want or get back my guy friends home. They understand me and my sis very well. We have had all the luxuries always and freedom to do whatever we want. I have never taken advantage of all this. Inspite of all my freedom I have never broken their trust. After confiding in my parents, I feel so lucky to have them today. I was prepared to hear a mouthful when I told mom about my relationship with the guy whom she used to adore the most. She was so calm that I felt I should have told this all long ago when I needed someone the most. She just told me that "He was a nice guy and I'm sure he would have kept you happy. But now its over and if it is meant to be it will happen again". Mann.. I never knew my parents were this supporting. I never took time to think that they will understand all this. I feel so proud to be their daughter. If I had told them everything earlier, maybe I would have coped up with things better and would have had a much better life now.

Just because one person was missing in my life, I missed looking out at others who have been by my side right from the word go. They have always been supportive and showered me with love when I wanted it the most. I never felt anything that time. Maybe because I dint want to. My friends were my lifeline then, but I never realised their importance. Today looking back I feel so nice to have such lovely people in my life. Basing my life on just one person was so not right. My parents rejoice in my happiness and I dint even bother to acknowledge it. Same goes with my friends. I'm so glad that today happened. Else I would never have realised what I had been missing and would have lived life like it was the worst punishment. Nope, not anymore. Minus my lovelife, I have the best life in the world. I have a good job that keeps me super busy. Its good cos it prevents my mind from wandering. I have great supportive parents, amazing friends. I live in a super peaceful house with my stack of books and I have my amazing collection of movies and music to entertain me. I don't know what was I complaining about so far.

Trust me it never hurts to accept things. I cant have something then accept it that you cant have it. Don't keep complaining and losing your mind. Look at other beautiful things around. My life is so beautiful that from now on I will have no complaints I'm sure. Oh comeon I am a lioness, I will survive. I did so far, that in itself is an achievement. Having him back in my life would be amazing, yes, but I'm not gonna ruin my life if I don't have him. I surely have a void in my life. But I'd rather accept that and live with it than brood about it. I'm proud of myself that I did everything I could to get us back together. It dint work, no problem. But it was a huge learning lesson for me. And today that episode has made me a better person and those are some mistakes which I will never repeat. I have accepted things the way they are. I cant keep trying to make him realise things. He needs to need me too. So I cant blame him either. He's right in his own way as I am in mine.

Today, my friend was like so finally I have my bubbly Soumya back. I hate that word but seeing the joy in her face made a world of difference to me. There are so many people in this world who are happy for me and want to see me do well. I'm lucky to be so loved and thats enough for me to live. I'm still alive after surviving depression and an almost nervous breakdown and I don't want to see myself go through it again. My life is great and I intend to keep it that way. What has to happen will happen and now I know that no matter what I have the strength and courage to face anything. Writing this I cant help but smile. Reason : I thought this day would never come. I've been through a lot for my 23 years and have made it through. I am a survivor and I am proud of it. Him being in my life would make it perfect, but my life is not so bad otherwise too. I'm gonna make my living experience worthwhile. Yes, I still do miss him. But like my mom says, "If it is meant to be, it will be. Else, take it as the most important chapter of your life".

PS : A heartfelt thanks to my beloved parents and my wonderful sister who has stood by me through everything. My friends Priya, Preethi, Swetha for helping me get past everything. My office girls Raksha, Priyanka, Divya for making me realise how wonderful my life is otherwise. Aru and Kannan, for supporting me throughout my miserable struggle and giving me valuable advice. Love you guys..!!