The problem with me is that I'm not used to happiness. But seeing the steady ramp in this particular emotion since a year, I guess its about time I get used to it and learn to bask in it without any doubts and concerns. Starting yesterday, I did it.
This day has been wonderful. The most important day in the whole of my adult life. Reaching a professional high and celebrating the joyous moment with the man I love. Do I need more things to make life perfect?
Being a true bred Lioness I've always dared to do things that people think a billion times before jumping in. After 3 years in a particular domain at work, I decided that this is not what I want to do. I did not want to spend the rest of my life writing spooky code that I give a damn about. Thanks to a blessed tongue, I wanted to do something which has me talking for almost 100% of the time. I just threw away my experience and jumped head first into it. Today, 4 months later as I'm rewarded, I just want to pat myself on my back and walk with my head held more high. This is what I want to do, this is where I want to be.
My first long relationship went kaput, making me cynical about love. I almost gave up, but love is an emotion that fails to elude me. The second one lasted long enough and gave me a new lease of life. But again some things work out and some things don't. The fault lies in the person and not the emotion. I can't believe I almost gave up on it. I still am skeptical about commitment and relationships, but love is something I can't stay away from. Can't help it when I am surrounded by such wonderful people. Today, I have a man by my side who means the world to me. There has only been joy since the minute he stepped into my life. He understands my fears and helps me get over them. He makes me want to use strong words like 'Love' and 'Relationship'. I ain't complaining and the romantic in me lives on.
Life troubles us. We need all the courage and strength to fight it. And most importantly you need to dare.
Dare to hope.
Have faith.
Believe.
You need to be able to get out of your comfort zone and challenge life's middle finger. You live only once, follow your dreams. Make them come to life. Its not tough.
What goes around, comes around. Karma is a bitch they say, well I'm prepared.
~ Soumya