No much work today. So I just sit n let my thoughts wander. Some make m happy, some moisten my eyes. The first thing that comes to my mind is, the first time I baked a cake all by myself. I can still feel the smell. My parents were so proud of me that day. So till today I'm the official baker of the family. The first day of my engineering college, all new strange faces around you, but the feeling of being in a college like Ramaiah held my head high. The time when I hugged my best friend goodbye while going away to Chennai, the time when the guy I love the most held my hand, the time I was awarded the Excellence in Studies award in high school, the time when my beloved doggie licked my face for the first time, the time when I handed over my first salary to dad. These memories never fail to bring a tear to my eye. Tears of joy. Happy memories include the time I topped college, the time I was crowned "Miss Fresher", the time I celebrated my love every single month for almost 4 years, the time I got placed in IBM, the time when I realised that I was financially independent n can actually have anything I want. There have also been some crazy moments. The time I was scolded left right n centre by my mom for cutting my hair extremely short, the time when dad freaked out when he saw the multiple piercings on my ear or the time when my friend decided to visit me when I was wearing a bright yellow dress... Sheeeesh.!What was I thinking?? There are a lot of things in life that you rejoice, take pride for. Its only when you sit back n think of them that you actually realise.
Life has actually always been good. Its only how we see it. There has always been a time in life when noone's company can cheer you. There are some memories which can only bring a weird feeling. Happy or sad, donno. There is something which binds me to my ex that I just cant think beyond him. Agreed, he may not be the perfect guy around. But there is something, I just cant figure out what is it that binds me to him n I just cant get away. I'm yet to come into terms with the fact that we are no longer together. I smile when I think of the days we spent together, cry when I know these days cant come back, blush when I think of our moments together. This is something noone can ever take away from me. Its rightly said that Education, Experience n Memories are the only things nooone can take away from you. Desires are something that never leave you. The most painful thing is when you are crowded by people who care for you n love you, but dont understand you. Its like what Kate Winslet said in Titanic " I feel like I'm standing in a room crowded by people n screaming my lungs out, but noone looks up. Noone". Life has given me the best of things. Some I still treasure n some I've lost. Probably I never appreciated them when they were around. I seriously wish that I was not aware of this things.Its rightly said that "Ignorance is Bliss". There are many questions which are better left unanswered. The moment you start seeking answers, you're in deep shit. It makes you feel so bad, that sometimes you wish you were never born.