Last week I had two major realisations. One, every single thing on earth is special. Two, humans are the worst species in the world.

I read 'Nineteen Minutes' by Jodi Picoult. I judge a book and a movie by what effect it leaves on your mind after its completion. This one makes you think a hell lot. Its not a very well heard of book, so here's how it goes. In the first chapter of the book a guy who is 17 walks into his school and shoots down 10 of his mates and injures 19 others. The entire fiasco last for nineteen minutes and hence the title. Why he did it forms the rest of the story. Totally worth the 600 pages it had.

Next, I saw a pretty old movie "The Elephant Man". Without a doubt this is the first movie I'd want to show to my kids when they come to their senses. Apart from me I just know one person who has seen this movie since its pretty old and I'm sure that its never been heard before in India. Its about a guy whose mother was trampled to death by wild elephants when she was pregnant. The infant survives, but is badly deformed. Badly would actually be an understatement here. The person in question (John Merrick), is so terribly deformed that his head is very large and he has the temple of an elephant. He is used in a circus as a freak to make money. His face is disfigured beyond your imagination, that he can even give the Red Dragon serious competition. Google it in images to see for yourself. I dint have the heart to put it up here. The way people treat him and use him form the rest of the movie. A must watch for everyone. This one has actually been inspired by a true story and my heart goes out to the real elephant man.

The thing common in the movie as well as the book, is the shrewdness of human nature. I always thought that everyone is born equal and has equal rights to live. A friend of mine says that Everyone is just the same, what differs is the way they use their abilities. I don't know why people pick on other people. The book mentions about the guy being humiliated time and again by his so called friends, for no fault of his. And the way the person is treated in the movie is clearly a shame to the human race. Not everyone is a born genius. Not everyone is great looking or is famous. But there is one thing common in everyone and that is feelings. There is nothing more painful than when feelings are hurt. Who doesn't want to feel loved? If you cant make a person feel good then you have no rights to make him feel bad either.

Inferiority complex is an in built thing in humans. Some learn to live with it. Torture is something which no one deserves. Not even an animal. Rejection is a part of life and there is nothing wrong in that. Making fun of others is fun to a certain extent but when it starts troubling the other person its inhumane. "Cruelty is always fun, until you realise that someone is getting hurt". When you do realise and stop, good. But if you don't, then no words to describe what you are. Kids are picked on in school, college for beings studious. Girls who are not pretty are teased. Unpopular kids are looked down upon. This is something which has been happening in day to day life and it is pathetic. Every person is special in his own special way and everybody deserves to be loved. Every single person demands to be treated with respect irrespective of the way he looks, the number of limbs he has or what he can do.

It can be easily said that you cant understand how it feels until you have experienced it. But how hard is it to understand feelings. I have been a good student, popular enough to have not been picked upon. I dint know how rejection felt until recently. It hurts yes. Badly it does. But if a single episode in life hurts so much, think about the people who are being subjected to such things everyday. Its hard to believe that its so easy to inflict pain on other people. At the end of the day they are humans. Why is it so hard to get it.

If every person treated the other as to how they would like to be treated, the world would have been a much better place today. And if this feeling of cruelty, sadistic tendencies comes naturally to humans, I truly feel ashamed of being a part of the human race :-(

Bloody Boring

'Kurbaan', was awaiting this damn movie from God knows how long. So me and my friend decided to watch it after office. With great difficulty, we got the tickets on the first day and hurried to the theatre escaping from office.

You know that a movie is not good when you start noticing only the clothes and makeup. This is exactly what happened to me with Kurbaan. The movie starts off in a Delhi college, where Avantika and Ehsaan, played by Kareena and Saif respectively are professors. They meet, go out for coffee, fall in love and are married within the first 20 minutes of the movie. They makeout in every place possible. The streets, cabs and believe it or not in the staff room. I mean if professors had so much fun, I wouldn't mind being one :P.

After their wedding, the movie shifts to NewYork where they start working as professors in NewYork University. Thankfully they are not making out in the staffrooms of NYU. Kareena teaches Psychology. Now that psychology teachers are supposed to be as goodlooking as Kareena I think I need to give a serious thought to studying psychology :P. Okay, jokes apart now I'm more interested in the subject than before. Saif, on the other hand teaches an imaginary subject "Impact of Muslims on the west". I cant believe that the dean of NYU agrees to a total stranger teaching a controversial subject to their students. The story(if any) loses track after the first half n hour of the movie. Suddenly Saif agrees to being a terrorist and Kareena is under house arrest and has to be mute to all her surroundings. She even has to cook for her husbands' terrorists friends and serve them like she's the best hostess in the world. Why, you never know.

The biggest mystery to me is why the people who are aware of what is happening around them don't contact the police. When Kareena finds out that her husband and his mates are planning to blow up a plane with an entire NewYork Delegation aboard, she tries contacting Dia Mirza, a journalist who is a part of the delegation. Why dint she contact the police or the airport authorities? The worse part is when Vivek Oberoi (in a dismissal role) finds out who is responsible for the plane blowing up incident tells "Main unse nipat lunga", instead of contacting the police. These form really big potholes in the movie. And that was only the beginning.

Performancewise Kareena excels. She looks gorgeous in the first part and her clothes and make up are bloody brilliant. Saif, looks kinda lost in the movie and the negative streak in him doesn't beat the one in 'Ek hasina thi' and 'Omkara'. He looks stylish and sleek. Its kinda surprising that a guy whose only motive is to destroy the anti-muslims is so updated with the latest fashion trends. Kareena's love for him in real life oozes out in every frame. Vivek and Dia play minute roles without any significance. Vivek and his fake accent only made the movie worse. I miss his Saathiya persona. Kiron Kher only looks funny in her western costumes and does nothing to help the slipping plot. Om Puri should retire. Its high time.

The biggest thing that was impossible for me to digest was that Saif's pictures are all over the police systems and yet he walks around like a free bird all over the city. One more thing is Kareens seducing him inorder to get some information when he's asleep. Instead of trying to sex him into sleep she could have just sedated him, which would have been more simpler and shall have reduced the length of the movie by atleast 15 mins. But Karan Johar is a smart producer. He knows that his story line is faulty and he needs viewers and hence the sexy song forms the USP of the movie. Kareena's excuse for doing that bold song was "Its integral to the script". Bullshit. I can come up with a dozen excuses to put a guy to sleep instead of tiring him out to sleep :-). Eventhough the song was not needed, that song is amazingly passionate and sung beautifully. It clearly forms a honeymoon song and I'm super addicted to it now. It has a very strong classical touch and is passion personified.

There sure is a lot of blood shed in the movie. The tagline says, 'Some love stories have blood on them'. I surely saw a lot of love and blood but sadly no story. The love between them has been seen before and is highly publicised already as 'Saifeena' and there is no need to sit through such a movie to see it. You surely can do much better Karan. Stick to your 'Wake up Sid!' kinda genre. This one surely is not memorable.

Life Still Has A Meaning

If there is a future
There is also a time for mending,
Time to see the troubles
Coming to an ending.

Life is never hopeless
However great the sorrow,
If you're looking forward
You will have a new tomorrow.

If there is time for wishing
Then there is time for hoping,
When through doubt and darkness
You are blindly groping.

Though the heart be heavy
Hurt you may be feeling,
If there is time for praying
There is also time for healing.

So if through your window
There is a new day breaking,
Thank God for the promise,
Though mind and soul be aching.

If with harvest over
There is grain enough for gleaning,
There is a new tomorrow and
Life still has a meaning.


  • If you want your dreams to come true, don't oversleep.

  • The smallest good deed is better than the grandest intention.

  • Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.

  • The best vitamin for making friends....B1.

  • The 10 commandments are not multiple choice.

  • The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.

  • Minds are like parachutes.. .they function only when open.

  • Ideas won't work unless YOU do.

  • One thing you can't recycle is wasted time.

  • One who lacks the courage to start has already finished.

  • The heaviest thing to carry is a grudge.

  • Don't learn safety rules by accident.

  • We lie the loudest when we lie to ourselves.

  • Jumping to conclusions can be bad exercise.

  • A turtle makes progress when it sticks its head out.

  • One thing you can give and still your word.

  • A friend walks in when everyone else walks out.


  • The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime!!!
  • Back with A Box of Kisses

    Today has been an eventful day in my life. So eventful that I had to give up my break and return to what I love doing most. Talking and blogging. Today, various events have occured in various places at various time. But they only had one impact on me. They helped me realise a lot and have helped me grow. Life is a learning lesson and I have now come to believe that whatever happens, happens for a reason and happens for good. I'm gonna live by it now. Some people die long before their heart stops functioning. I dont want to be one among them. Nothings happens by itself, you need to make it happen. As my manager says, "You are your own driving force".!

    The reason why today was kinda special was due to the below story. I had a discussion about it with a friend and it just made me feel really nice.

    The story goes that some time ago, a man punished his 3-year-old daughter for wasting a roll of gold wrapping paper. Money was tight and he became infuriated when the child tried to decorate a box to put under the Christmas tree.

    Nevertheless, the little girl brought the gift to her father the next morning and said, "This is for you, Daddy." He was embarrassed by his earlier overreaction, but his anger flared again when he found the box was empty.

    He yelled at her, "Don't you know that when you give someone a present, there's supposed to be something inside it?"

    The little girl looked up at him with tears in her eyes and said,"Oh, Daddy, it is not empty. I blew kisses into the box. All for you, Daddy."

    The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little girl, and he begged for her forgiveness.

    It is told that the man kept that gold box by his bed for years and whenever he was discouraged, he would take out an imaginary kiss and remember the love of the child who had put it there.

    In a very real sense, each of us as humans have been given a gold container filled with unconditional love and kisses from our children, friends, family and God. There is no more precious possession anyone could hold. Hold on to it and life will be no less than heaven.

    Cheers to that!! :-)

    Will be BACK

    Just when I thought that things were getting better, Life decides to take a sharp 'U' turn. Things have got more messier (if that was possible), and I'm the only one who is solely responsible for it. Its just that as the dates approach 18th, somethings breaks within me. I can feel the sharp sting inside and I just lose my mind. Its during this time that my attempts at damage control gets more worse than the damage itself.

    I've not been in a very clear state of mind since last week. My vacation has been cancelled, I'm loaded with work until March and I was down with food poisoning since 2 days, which has left me all weak and emaciated. I had to skip work for 2 days, to get some good rest. My parents couldn't get an off and I was left all alone at home. I couldn't surf the net because I was not supposed to strain my eyes, I couldn't read (same reason again). All I could do was lie down and think. And that's what I did. Just when I was thinking about everything in my life, Dad, knowing that I was too exhausted to retaliate, brought up the dreaded 'Marriage' talk. Now that my sister has turned a year older, he wants her to settle down. Fair enough. But whats not fair is that he wants me to settle down within a year after she does. I was like, WTF. So that would give me 2 or max 3 years. But dad has always been my weakness and I can never say an outright no to him. After all he's one among the 2 men whom I love the most in the world. I told him that I'll think about it. And now the time has come for some serious thinking.

    Life has been pathetic and I'm not in a very sound mind since the past 15-16 months. I thought that people around me were the only ones who noticed how unhappy I was but I was bummed when a stranger approached me in a coffee shop a few days ago and asked me the same. So, this guy just came upto me when I was waiting for my girls in a coffee shop. First thing he tells is that, 'You have really lovely eyes and a beautiful smile'. I was obviously flattered but considering that he was a stranger, I decided to end it with a thank you. But before I could say something, he said 'But there is a problem with you'. I could only manage a confused look. He then says, 'When you smile, your eyes don't smile.' and leaves. I had forgotten that incident until a few days back. I stood in front of the mirror and asked myself if I was that unhappy that even strangers can notice it. Its not a good thing.

    The past 15-16 months has been emotionally taxing and has completely broken me down. However I tried my best, not to get shattered. But now I guess its too late. Shattered and bruised is how my current state of mind is. At this point I had only 2 options. One, to give it all up and end it once and forever. Two, to be strong and fight and try to mend up things. I chose the latter. I need to pick up the shattered bits of life and sort it out. Obviously this is not going to happen overnight. I need time to figure out things, considering the fact that I have very few years left. Its really funny because a couple of years ago, I had a plan chalked out. From the guy I wanted to marry, to the names of my 2 children had been planned. And I always thought that things went wrong for people who dint have a plan. How foolish was I.

    Now I need to decide if I have to have faith in my love, or give love a second chance or directly jump into a compromise (read 'Arranged Marriage'). Or I need to come up with an excuse that will get me out of this even if its temporary. Higher studies is the best option. But in what I don't get it. Psychology, Literature, Journalism, all these appeal to me but I need to narrow it down soon. So by now you all would have got it that how conked up I am. I need time to sort out things. I don't know when and how I am going to do it. Honestly, I'm not even sure if I want to do it or not. Somehow running away from such stuff seemed easy, but now I need to face it and make decisions. Its my life after all and not a movie.

    In my current state of mind, anything that I do, say or post is going to be utter rubbish. I don't want to repent for things I did in an unsound state of mind. So I'm taking a break. Quite a long one to sort out the broken pieces of life. I just hope God gives me the strength and sense to figure things out. So take care guys and do pray for me. I will be back soon, as a better person and with better posts. Until then, Its break time..!!


    Gandhiji said, "Freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes". I totally agree with it. Just one clause, You make a mistake, accept it. Don't try to cover it up. A person who makes a mistake, accepts that what he/she has done is wrong, genuinely regrets and asks for forgiveness, deserves to be forgiven. Its takes great guts for a person to accept their own mistakes. After all you have to live with it for the rest of your life. You learn from your mistakes true. But its also true that until it happens to you, you wont realise that its a mistake. Life teaches you a million lessons and most of these come from experience. My funda is simple. 'Always accept your mistakes before someone else goes out and exaggerates them'. There wouldn't be a single person out there who has not committed any mistake. Ohh comeon its been an age old fact that 'To err is human'. Aren't we all. Every learning lesson in life evolves from a mistake.

    Some say that people who fear to make mistakes hardly do anything with their lives. But failure to learn from one's mistakes will lead one to commit the same mistake again. There's got to be a balance somewhere. Mistakes are unavoidable. Its the aftermath that matters. A great quote I found. "If you have made mistakes, even serious ones, there is always another chance for you. What we call failure is not the falling down but the staying down". I mean, this cannot be more true. We often think that if we could go back in life and rectify a few mistakes we made, we surely would. However, now that is next to impossible, we may as well as try to make the best of it now. What is a mistake? Its an action you did which made you repent later. So whats the best you can do? Never do that again and that's a lesson well learnt. How hard is it?

    Life is a long journey and no saint has made it through without committing a mistake. Life is all about making mistakes. Realisation is what mistakes to learn from. Sometime ago I wouldn't be the person who would listen to all such things, let alone think about it or write about it. But when reality strikes you, you are left with nothing but the guilt of what you have done. If I could I would just go back and undo it. But my mistakes only helped me learn and realise the importance of people in my life. That's only because I was willing to accept that I went wrong. Yes, the girl who lived half her life thinking that she could never go wrong, was actually wrong. I made a huge nightmare of a mistake and am repenting till now. But that has helped me grow as a person. I would never ever, no matter under any circumstances make such a mistake again. I have seen the consequences and will never let that happen again. I accepted my mistake yes. Every single bit of it. I dint feel ashamed or anything. That's because I knew what I had done is wrong. My mindset, emotional dependency and temper has put me into a lot of trouble. Umpteen number of times I've repented and tried to sew the broken ends. Succeeded sometimes, failed the other times. But I accepted my fault and tried. That's what counts. Thanks to all these episodes in life, now I'm a changed person. No these things dint happen over night. It was over a duration of time that these realisations dawned and helped me become the better person I am today. Patience, which was never one of my virtues is my trademark now. Boy, I really really worked hard on this one. My friends ask me how on earth did you manage to do that and I have no answer. Understanding, the thing I lacked most initially comes naturally to me now. I was a super stubborn creature wanting what I wanted by hook or crook without being bothered about others' problems. But now the first thing I do is put myself in their place and look at things from their side and decide on what to do. I've got so used to this now that people actually take advantage of it and have taken me for granted :-(. But I cant change myself now. I know I'm doing right, and people can do whatever they want. Sometimes, there comes a point in your life where people become so selfish that they wouldn't mind jeopardising existing relationships or manipulating you to get their things done. That's when and why I learnt that I need to be emotionally independent. Its really hard for someone like me, but I'm improving bit by bit. So here, I've realised my faults, accepted it and am doing something about it. Lost enough because of my foolishness. Not anymore. Not anymore.

    There are some cases where I've seen people who are proud of their mistakes. "I know I'm wrong, but that person deserved it". This doesn't make sense what so ever. No one gives you the right to hurt anyone. My friends tell me that my problem is that I'm too good to people. I do things with only good intentions and except the same from them. But that's not how the world works. I've been used and my feelings shattered and manipulated by God knows how many. The world apparently is a very bad place. You need to learn on your own to survive. Make mistakes, take it positively and learn from them. Never be weak. Making mistakes only make you stronger. And for God's sake never make them again. That's foolishness and you'll be in trouble forever.

    Also, never expect people to be like you. Each one is a species all together. You may accept your mistakes and try to cope up, but don't expect people to forgive you all the time. You try your best and if your worth it, they will. The whole point of this post is to accept your mistakes. Please don't try to cover it up. It only makes things worse. Be honest and don't lie. Its something that you have done. Why deny that? How can you live with yourself denying something that you have done and are well aware of. Just accept it and get it out of your system. You will feel really light trust me. Mistakes are committed due to weakness of something or the other. Don't argue for other people's weaknesses. Don't argue for your own. When you make a mistake, admit it, correct it, and learn from it ----- IMMEDIATELY.

    Some quotations that make sense.

    1. A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing.
    2. An expert is a person who has made all the mistakes that can be made in a very narrow field.
    3. As long as the world is turning and spinning, we're gonna be dizzy and we're gonna make mistakes.
    4. Be thankful for your mistakes. They will teach you valuable lessons.
    5. Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is knowing which ones to keep.
    6. It's always helpful to learn from your mistakes because then your mistakes seem worthwhile.
    7. Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from.
    8. Mistakes, obviously, show us what needs improving. Without mistakes, how would we know what we had to work on?
    9. Success seems to be connected with action. Successful people keep moving. They make mistakes, but they don't quit.
    10. The man who makes no mistakes does not usually make anything.
    11. The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing.
    12. There is a certain degree of satisfaction in having the courage to admit one's errors. It not only clears up the air of guilt and defensiveness, but often helps solve the problem created by the error.
    13. When you make a mistake, admit it. If you don't, you only make matters worse.

    Finally Something Good

    Its November and finally this year is turning out to be a tad better. I hope these two months ahead compensate for the ten past ones. Anyways the reason I said that this year is getting better is that from the start of this month, good things are happening. Yeah finally!! Phew, how much I've waited for the year to get better. Work is great, realisations dawned, realised the importance of few people in life, shunned out a lot of unwanted people, finally figured out what I want in life, celebrated the success of my weight put on mission, won a contest at blogger town, going on a holiday and now, one of my best friends is getting married.!!! Yay! I'm so damned happy. She deserves a lot of happiness and I'm sure she will get it. Congrats Girl.!! I hope this improvement in life continues. Keeping fingers crossed.!!

    Thanks :-)

    I'm supremely happy these days. My blogs are being appreciated on a national forum. My post won the contest on the first month itself. I just received my gift at home and loved it. I even got a certificate and a virtual trophy that I have already displayed. My posts reflect my life, my happiness and sorrows and my daily life. I'm very honest on my posts and write from my experience and straight from my heart. I'm not a poetess but all my poems have been appreciated so much by bloggers all over the country. I never thought that my blog will be such a hit. I feel so humbled and touched. I write about regular stuff and that seems to be the USP of my blog. I'd like to thank all my followers and friends and each and every soul in my life.

    Writing was just a habit before, considering the fact that I've documented my life since I was 16 in a diary. Now its a passion and a new obsession. Just penning down my thoughts make me feel so good. My life is out there on my blog. No hidden facts and no fake stories. Its all out there. As a follower once said that just my posts is enough to know about my entire life and my life style. They say that the pen is mightier than the sword. Couldn't be more true. After every single post, I feel so light. My blog is like my friend with whom I share everything. Its nice to see the mixed reactions of people and their opinions do matter to me.

    Also, just have a look a look at my new stint at blogger town. My post 'Murderer' is amongst the most commented posts and the comments I've received on my others posts is commendable. Just follow the link below and at the right side of the home page you will find a list of bloggers on that forum. You just have to click on my name to see my posts.

    So thanks to everyone who have contributed to my life. If you have made an impact, you surely have appeared on my blog. Thanks for appreciating me, and accepting my brutally honest posts as they are. Thanks a ton everyone!! So keep on reading and yes your comments and suggestions are held high.!! Thanks a lot :-).

    Brain Power

    An interesting article in the paper today. "Women like Nerds", it said. Although not entirely true I'd not disagree on it. I wouldn't prefer calling them nerds. That sounds very geeky. "Smart and Intellectual" sounds much better. Yes, women definitely find such men better when compared to hot and sexy poster boys. Hot and sexy + Smart and intellectual = Jackpot. If you've found such a guy then stick on girl!! Never let him go.

    So the whole article was about how these men who are old and nerdy attract young attractive women. Personally, I would surely prefer a learned man than a hot dumb one. See its not like good looking guys are always dumb. There are a few smart ones, but no matter how smart they are they will be narcissists. They have this air about them that they can rule the world and can have any woman by their side. Such guys are a strict no no for me. Any guy who can keep me engaged in a conversation is a big hit with me. You need to have a partner with whom you can talk to endlessly. Because when you grow old, conversation is the only thing that will keep you going. In order to make decent talk the guy has to well learnt and smart. If thats called nerdy so be it.

    I've always found this quality the best in men. Nothing to do with the age and all, but I've always found a Shashi Tharoor more attractive than a ShahRukh Khan or a Rahul Bose more fascinating than a Hrithik Roshan. Looks are great yes, but something within should matter to. I'd call it the 'CHARM'. Looks are not charming always. The way a guy speaks, the topics he prefers, his take on life, the books he reads, this is enough to know about a guy and how will he treat you. But these may not be the same for every guy. Like take the guy I'm crazy about for an example. He doesn't like to read. Not a movie buff like me who watches atleast 2 movies a week on big screen. But the thing that attracts him most to me is the way he keeps my brain and heart occupied. Everyday with him was an adventure and not a routine. I love him, so thats what has to do with the heart. But he's the only one who has been able to titillate my brain and heart the same way. 5 hours of conversation with him and I'd still look forward for more. Topics should not be limited obviously. Any topic under the sun should be discussed with ease. Ofcourse, this depends on the comfort level as well. But that depends on the person and how comfortable he makes you feel. He makes me fall in love with him every single day and this has to do with the way he is and thats what attracts him the most to me. An extra talent like singing, writing, playing an instrument or a sport is an added advantage. Noone until today, has had me drooling over him like this one has. He is an entire package with beauty, brains and a heart to kill for. I've always wanted a guy who is a step ahead of me in every field. This one surely is and thats what is most attractive about him.

    Most guys are so obsessed about the way they look and how hot girls find them. Among such guys I would surely go for the one who is simple and down to earth. The article says that everyone would like a partner who is unlike them. I'm not the simple and down to earth types , but I'd surely want one who is like that. That way we can complete each other. I've had guy friends who are so obsessed about themselves that they complain that why don't girls find them attractive. I tell them what a girl looks for but they just fail to get it. How hard is it to get that girls don't fall for the way a guy looks or for the the things he can afford. Okay wont deny that there are plenty of girls out there who would actually fall for such things. But they are the ones who fail to understand love and companionship.

    Brain power rules, in both males and females. Would never compromise on such a thing. I think nobody should.


    'Exorcist', 'The Exorcism of Emily Rose', both these movies dint scare me as much as '2012' did today. This was one movie which I was waiting for months. The movie is superb, except that it scared the hell outa me.

    When the ancient Mayan calender went missing after December 21st 2012 everyone said that thats the day the world would end. I just hope that the calender just went missing or someone forgot to fill it in. Because if the world is gonna end as its been shown in the movie, I'd rather die a day earlier and that would be less painful. I was kinda hoping that it would be better if the world ends, cos that would mean the end of all the problems and miseries. Not only mine but of the entire world. I know that was very pessimistic of me, but that seemed to be the best solution and I'm sure most of you all will agree with me. But now I think otherwise. The end shown in that movie is more brutal and painful than anything anyone would have experienced.

    John Cusack, nice to see him in a serious role after all the romantic ones he has done. Loved him in 'Serendipity' though. He plays a failed writer who now drives a limousine for a multi billionaire. He's divorced and has two children and his ex wife seems to be dating someone. Amanda Peet his ex wife is stunningly gorgeous in the movie and the way her eyes speak is truly amazing. The movie starts of with a scientist, played wonderfully by Chiwetel Ejiofor learning that the earth's core temperature is increasing rapidly and the world is going to erupt soon. Next this issue is taken to the government of America, which then coordinates will all the nations to save the human race. This unity is shown really well and feels nice to know that people still feel that they are one. The best part is the scientist who discovered this huge catastrophic disaster is shown to be an Indian and the labs shown in the movie is enough to admit that we are a growing technological country. Good to know that :-).

    This movie has more than enough bangs and is worth the 250 bucks you spend. First, California is ripped apart by massive earthquakes. The cracks shown in the streets are really scary. Then, part by part the whole world slides into the ocean. Mountains erupt and people are charred to death. Every symbol of mankind be it man made structures or nature itself is all wiped out. The white house, St Peters basilica, Christ the Redeemer is all broken down to pieces. The animation and technology used in the movie is excellent. The scenes are a delight to watch and I'm sure the director made this movie having the destructive thoughts of a very sadistic human who enjoys watching misery.

    Unfortunately nothing much can be told about the story line which just has these characters trying to cope up with their failed relationships before the world comes to an end. Its a movie and yes they do reconcile and live happily ever after, after a bunch of people including them are saved and land up in some weird place where they are expected to start a new life, to save the human race. If you're in love the movie can be emotionally taxing knowing that you cant get to live a whole life if the world ends. Else, this sadistic movie actually turns into a joy ride with scenes shot with such aplomb that they wont let you take your eye off the screen for a minute. The movie is a bit too long and when you thought that you have seen it all, the ship/spaceship or whatever that thing is which is carrying the last of humanity heads towards the Mount Everest. I wonder how when everything collapsed, Mount Everest was standing tall almost like waiting for this spaceship thing to go and ram into it. The scene where the spaceship could not move ahead because the gates weren't closed had me smiling. No this had nothing to do with the movie though. Its just brought to light the realisation I had yesterday. Call it a coincidence or whatever. Until you close the gates of your life on somethings and some people you just cannot move ahead. Be it in whatever situation you are you have to do it inorder to escape pain and misery. Well, so this one had me smiling. The only moment throughout the movie where I actually smiled.

    The rest of the movie is actually very thought provoking. The earths crust has been heated so badly that she actually explodes. I just hope after this movie, people and governments start taking global warming seriously and do something about it. These predictions may not seem to be true but if the world were to end on December 21st 2012 I'd want to be in the arms of my loved one with our families around. Wiping out of the human race seems really illogical but who knows what may happen. After all these things never existed before. And as they say, "Everything that has a beginning, has an END".


    I got this virtual trophy when I won a contest at blogger town. So here I display it proudly. Oh man, today seems to be a really nice day. :-)

    About a BOY

    My best post till date. A bit too long, but after 3 editing sessions the max I could bring down was to 76 lines. This one's for the love of my life.

    On a fateful day,
    In April was his birth
    A sweet simple guy,
    Who is very down to Earth.
    Sometimes naive,
    Something naughty,
    Wherever he goes there is
    Sure to be a party.
    His smile is enough,
    To light up my life
    I dream to be with him,
    To be his wife.
    His voice is something
    That captures my heart,
    He is the only one,
    I want close and never apart.
    His lovelorn eyes,
    Its all mine, every bit
    I want to reach for them,
    Cos it has my name all over it.
    Every time I see him,
    My heart skips a beat
    His heart is the place,
    Where I want a seat.
    His gentle touch,
    Always gives me goose bumps
    Without him around,
    Life seems to be in the dumps.
    His arms were the place,
    Where I felt warmth and care,
    Now, I could do anything,
    To get back there.
    His heart is so pure,
    His love so true,
    There can be noone like him,
    No, Not even a few.
    Whether he's near
    Or somewhere far apart,
    I cant deny that,
    He's the one who rules my heart.
    Just his presence,
    Makes my day,
    He is so special,
    In his own special way.
    Noone looks better,
    In formals than him,
    He's the only one
    Who makes my heart go ummm.
    He drives me crazy,
    He makes me go wild
    He can treat me like a woman,
    And pamper me like a child.
    A great lover,
    And a true friend,
    Both he will be to me,
    Until the world ends.
    Life is so miserable,
    And tough without him,
    There is no light anywhere,
    Everything is hazy and dim.
    I'm so lonely and lost,
    Myself I cant find
    But if that makes him happy,
    This bleeding pain I don't mind.
    I could die,
    To see a smile on his face,
    I'd gladly do it for forever,
    For years, months and days.
    He's so unique,
    That I cant think beyond him,
    I cant nor do I want,
    To stop loving him.
    He's my present and my future,
    Never will he be my past
    His arms are the place,
    Where I want to breathe my last.

    Kismat se Tum

    I shed a tear for almost every love song. But this one had me bawling over. Sonu and Kavita Krishnamurty at their best. Superb.

    Kismat se tum, humko mile ho,
    Kaise chodenge, yeh haath hum na chodenge,
    Phir se banti taqdeeron ko,
    Armaanon ki zanjeeron ko,
    Jaanam ab na todenge,
    Kismat se tum humko mile ho,
    Kaise chodenge, yeh haath hum na chodenge..

    Kya kahoon kaise lagte hai dil pe zulfon ke saaye,
    Koi bhoola raahi jaise manzil paa jaaye,
    Ya koi dil toofaan ka maara,
    Dard ki laheron mein aawaara,
    Koi pyaara pyaar ke saaye paa jaaye..

    Kismat se tum, humko mile ho,
    Kaise chhodenge, yeh haath hum na chhodenge,
    Tukde dil ke hum tum milke,
    Phir se jodenge, yeh sheesha phir se jodenge..
    Phir se banti taqdeeron ko,
    Armaanon ki zanjeeron ko
    Jaanam ab na todenge..

    Yun sharmaati yun ghabraati aise simti simtaayi,
    O mere baalam yunhi nahin main jaate jaate laut aayi hoon,
    Preet meri pehchaani tune,
    Meri kadr to jaani tune,
    Ab dil jaaga hosh mein chaahat ab aayi..

    Kismat se tum, humko mile ho,
    Kaise chhodenge, yeh haath hum na chhodenge..
    Tukde dil ke hum tum milke,
    Phir se jodenge, yeh sheesha phir se jodenge..
    Phir se banti taqdeeron ko,
    Armaanon ki zanjeeron ko,
    Jaanam ab na todenge,
    Kismat se tum, humko mile ho,
    Kaise chhodenge, yeh haath hum na chhodenge..

    Ajab Ranbir aur Ghazab Katrina

    I saw 'Ajab Prem Ki Ghazab Kahani' last weekend. That was a movie I was eagerly waiting for, for quite sometime. Promos looked fresh and promising and the music struck a chord with my heart right from the first time I heard it. Especially 'Tera hone laga hoon' and 'Na jaane kyu' drive me wild. Its love at its best there. Atif Aslam rocks. He and Mohit Chauhan are the best singers we have of late. I love each and every song of theirs.

    So I walked into the movie hall with loads of expectations and loads of friends. The movie started of really well. With a statue narrating the entire story. Ranbir is at his best here. Noone could have pulled off the crazy, non English speaking Prem this well. The story is really good and makes sense. With a lot copied from 'Andaz Apna Apna' the climax is super fun. Katrina is the surprising element here. She plays Jenny like noone else could. Finally she has learnt some new expressions and is a delight to watch. Her clothes are to die for in the movie.

    The second half drags on a bit too long but the hilarious climax makes up for more than that. Some scenes make you want to laugh your ass off. The scene where Ranbir cant stop grooving to the music is so amazing that you will want to stand up and applaud. The confused expressions on Katrina face during the climax finally shows the birth of an actress. She is gorgeous that girl. This movie has the heart in the right place. The cameo with Salman was a surprise, but he looks super fat. Time to start working out again buddy. Upen Patel, hmmm, what do I say bout him. Dint Santhoshi find anybody else? Did he even look for. That guy cant act to save his life let alone emote. The guy who played Anshuman in 'Jab we met' or the one who played Sushant in "Jaane tu ya jaane na' would have done a much decent job. Upen looks beefed up and totally out of place. If there has to be a bad point in the movie, its definitely him. Rest all is near perfect.

    A sweet movie, with a cute love story. A must watch for all Ranbir's fans as he is present in practically every scene. Katrina and he share such an amazing chemistry that its hard to believe that they are just 2 characters in a movie. A delightful movie.!

    Nothing Incompatible

    Last night, Just managed to watch the whole of "Whats your Rashee", the movie. Mann boring and annoying it was. In the end the guy who is a Scorpio marries an Aquarius girl. But Scorpio and Aquarius are supposed to be Incompatible signs. So such things don't actually mean anything. Well, for one the movie proves it. So there is nothing as such as compatible or incompatible signs. Its the person and love that matters. I don't know why but this makes me extremely happy. I can still hope now.!! (Not that I had stopped)..

    Bad Things

    A verse from the book I'm currently reading. Jodi Picoult's best seller "Nineteen Minutes".

    Nobody wants to admit to this, but bad things will keep on happening. Maybe that's because it's all a chain, and a long time ago someone did the first bad thing, and that led someone else to do another bad thing, and so on. You know, like that game where you whisper a sentence into someone's ear, and that person whispers it to someone else, and it all comes out wrong in the end.

    But then again, maybe bad things happen because it's the only way we can keep remembering what good is supposed to look like.

    Its all about Love

    I'll be your dream
    I'll be your wish,
    I'll be your fantasy.
    I'll be your hope,
    I'll be your love,
    I'll be everything that you need.
    I'll love you more with every breath,
    Truly madly deeply.
    You're the reason for my living,
    You give my life deeper meaning.
    Please forgive me,
    I dont know what to do
    Please forgive me,
    I cant stop loving you.
    Dont deny me,
    The pain I'm going through,
    Please forgive me,
    I need you like I do.
    Look into my eyes,
    You'll see
    What you mean to me
    Search your heart, search your soul
    And when you find me there,
    You'll search no more.
    Don't tell me it's not worth trying for,
    You can't tell me it's not worth dying for,
    You know it's true,
    Everything I do, I do it for you.
    There's no love, like your love
    And no other, could give more love,
    I would fight for you,
    I'd lie for you,
    Walk the wire for you,
    Ya I'd die for you.
    You know it's true,
    Everything I do, I do it for you.
    What I got to do to make you love me?
    What I got to do to make you care?
    What do I do when lightning strikes me?
    And I wake to find that you're not there?
    What I got to do to make you want me?
    What I got to do to be heard?
    What do I say when its all over?
    Sorry seems to be the hardest word.
    You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night,
    You make me wanna hold you till the morning light,
    You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall,
    You make me wanna surrender my soul.
    I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight,
    You're the first and last thing on my mind.
    You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
    You make me wanna surrender my soul.
    I Love you always forever,
    Near or far closer together,
    Everywhere I will be with you,
    Everything I will do for you.
    And now that you're gone,
    I just wanna be with you
    And I can't go on,.
    I wanna be with you.
    I can't sleep and I'm up all night,
    Through these tears I try to smile.
    I know the touch of your hand,
    Can save my life,
    Don't let me down,
    Come to me now,
    I got to be with you somehow.
    Don't let me die,
    I'm losing my mind,
    Baby just give me a sign,
    I just wanna be with you.

    No Answer

    Today a friend asked me something, and for the first time ever I had no answer for something. I've always taken pride in the way I speak and how quickly I come up with witty answers. Today, I had nothing to say. Absolutely nothing. I just sat and looked at him and he says he has never seen me this lost before. He asked, "Do you think you will be able to love someone else". I still have no answer.