Why and How

I decide to never think of you,

But that is something I can never do;

Even when life is filled with everything new,

Somewhere in some corner I find you.

I'm trying to be strong,

Doing everything to get you apart;

But once I listen to your voice,

It goes straight and melts my heart.

I'm satiated and happy inside,

Life is good even when you and I are not "us";

But I can't help but know that,

Together, we shall always be a plus.

Its kinda funny cos I have no complaints,

Yet I seem to want something that I can't get;

At times I'm not too sure if I actually want it,

But it always is one thing that I can never forget.

I try not to have you in my mind,

Yet, I pray for you every time I kneel;

Even when I'm in the happiest of moments,

I can't help but think how you feel.

I try not to feel this way,

But why does it hurt when you treat me bad;

Why do I rejoice in your happiness,

Why do I shed a tear when you're sad.

Every single thing in my life,

Reminds me in someway about you;

But when I have decided to let go,

Why is it that I can't think beyond you.

I'm used to the present happenings,

Now I even don't feel blue;

But, how do I get you off my heart?

How do I evade the fact that I still love you.