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Karma & Confessions

Its almost the end of the month and I have churned out just 7 posts? *Hangs her head in shame* Been so caught up that I even forgot to put a picture on my previous post. Sigh! Nope, I can't afford this anymore. I need regular moments of insanity from now on. So I decided to pamper my blog and give the virtual lioness a makeover. Good one eh? I was still hooked on to the coffee template I had earlier, but that damned thing posed more problems than one. Comments, date format, width adjustments, you name it and there was an issue with it. But this one blew me away. Lets face it, I've always had a thing for dark shades and this one gives me a perfect balance of a journal and my love for black, coffee and a choco chip cookie. I'm satisfied with this one :) Nothing bothers me anymore. I'm in a very happy place. For once, my personal and professional life has been on an high for more than a fortnight. I'm enjoying the responsibilities, the stress, the tension, the rush

What goes around..

Comes around. And how.. A couple of posts back I mentioned that I've been having so much fun in life that I hardly go home before 11 pm. Well that streak continues till today but since 2 weeks its been work, work and more work. Ah well, I just went a rung up in the corporate ladder. I am the development lead for my team now. Having said that, its absolutely not easy to be a person who has look into every single aspect of a project and be the first point of contact for any issue. I've been under immense stress oflate, but I'm loving every minute of it. Most importantly it keeps me distracted enough to not think about other things. Or people. I'm not a very responsible person myself. I'm pretty clumsy to be honest. So this is a huge turning point for me. I'm learning to be responsible not only for myself, but also for the other members in my team. God's been really funny with me. He gives me extreme and mandatory chances to grow up. I'm not complaining a

It never died..

I am in love! I'm still in love. I don't want to feel anything I just want to go completely numb I want to dwell in this emotionless place If I'm out I'll surely succumb I'm seriously hoping this is nothing Its just this day that's mocking me Then why am I feeling like this now Today, its only you I want to see Suddenly everything is about you Your voice, your smile and your touch I want to rush into your arms Your hands I tightly want to clutch I thought I was done with this Then why this sudden memory flood Whatever it is, get done with soon I can't shed more tears or blood I had made peace with myself Everything was going on fine Then why at least just for today I only want you to be mine Love was a forgotten word Why today it means the world Is today not just another day Why do I feel like I'm painfully hurled Solitude was becoming my friend I was trying hard never to feel Why this abrupt burst of agony The wounds were only beginning to heal

Up in the Air

I was at the Aero Show today and trust me it sure was an experience of a lifetime. Its not everyday that you get to wave out to Shahid Kapur or catch a glimpse of M.S Dhoni. So, it sure was an awesome day :). I was also supposed to go watch the India vs Australia warm up match today, but damned work is keeping me put at home. My sister is out there cheering and I'm stuck here glued to 2 laptops. But I also needed a break, thanks to the stress and madness the past few weeks have been. Now about the Aero show, I've always tremendously admired men in uniform, like any normal woman out there. Army and Navy is a big big turn on and the Air force is a bigger game all together. I so want to marry a pilot now. They are daredevils I swear. So calm, so composed before they climb into a fighter plane. And they come out looking the same after going 10,000 feet up in the air and doing all possible acrobatics and loops in the air. It was fascinating! Even the highest and scariest roller c

Green

With clear happy thoughts I rest my head to sleep I feel peace all around As I plunge into slumber deep I see crisp blue skies And the sun shining bright Butterflies flocking white lilies And the sunflowers woven tight I hear gurgling waters And the early birds twitter The clouds break a melody I feel rain drops pitter patter The faint music gets loud Its beautiful though almost mute Its mystically mesmerising A violin? A piano? Or a flute? This vision of beautiful life Is what I always yearned for Love, cheer and smiles And free from any kind of war Everything seems so perfect Yet I seem to carry a ghost A fleet of memories haunt me How can I not be the host? Suddenly I see your face I smile wide amidst my dream But I see you with someone else Then I wake up a shade of green

Chaos

I'm kinda suffering from a writers block. Just look at the frequency of my posts. I was the one who thought it was mandatory to write atleast one post a day. Sometimes I used to come up with two and take a long time debating on what to post and more often than not end up posting both. Sigh, the foolish me! But now, its all just blank. Also, I'm not having enough time for it. I've promised myself never to post something during office hours, so there goes the major portion of my time. I've been out socialising so much that I hardly get time to sit free and browse the internet. I do check for updates via my phone a coupla times during the day. I've always been addicted to internet, but now somehow the need has ceased. I don't remember coming home before 11 this whole week. No, not work. Catching up with friends, bidding a few goodbyes, laughing away to glory, dancing, drinking, cheering and all the madness. How life got this busy I don't know. Even if I do f

Is it Me?

So I was having a chat with this guy today. A good friend you can say. Hmmm, I probably like him much more than how much I should like a friend, but still. Well, I'm kinda fascinated by him of late, or so I thought! Man, was I in for a surprise. So we're talking normally and he matter of factly mentions that there is this another girl and he likes her and all that jazz. I know for a fact that he likes me, or liked me until sometime ago at least, and today this. I was taken aback yes, but it was only momentary. I started asking him about her, what she does, how she looks and all that. And he took his own time to spin a tale about how they met and other blah blah. This went on for quite sometime until he tells me that it was all a fragment of his imagination and he was just testing my reaction. I was like bleh, what for? And then there I sat, talking to myself that here is a guy whom I think I like. ' Like ', extra emphasis on the word. Yet, it doesn't seem to bothe