If you don't have a past, then you don't have a present. Show me one person who hasn't had a past and I'll bow to you. Isn't this what life is all about. The past, the present and the future. So why make a big deal about having a past or dreaming about the future. This is how life is. This is how life is meant to be.
Its after ages that I'm thinking about my past or writing about it. People who have been following my blog right from the start know that I have also been a victim of living in the past. But I don't regret it now. After a colorful past(not my choice of words) I chose what colors I need in my present. The past has been very kind and unkind to me. But yeah, I survived all that didn't I? People around me think that I have an enviable life because of all the men I have around. They might just be friends, but again, you cannot control what others think. Others think that maybe my present is not good enough, just because they have had limited information about my past. For those keeping count, I've had 94,769,321 boyfriends. Don't wait, just pick the phone and spread the word. I haven't cared about what you say or do for the 9490 days I've been on this earth, what makes you think that now I will. And if you think that my past is limited only to this aspect, then you will be shocked. There is a reason why I do what I do and why I am the way I am today.
Situations affect a person the most, be it from the past or the present. If you don't know the reason then please don't judge.
Its my life, my past, my present, my boyfriend and my marriage. Life is seriously funny at times. The title of this post comes from the song 'Erase & Rewind', which was introduced to me by a then good friend. Today, I no longer know if he is actually alive or not. Not that I care, but still. Another close friend turned into a foe after a brief relationship, and today he does not exist for me. People come, people leave. 3 years ago, I wasn't happy at all at my work front. I just did the job because I was getting paid. When I decided that this is not what I want, I just plunged into something else and I'm the happiest today. Life is life, everyone has a past, present and a future. Its up to us to decide what and who you want to carry from the past to the present or to the future. Even the normal life we live apart from boy/girlfriends and work is a life. There is a past and a future to it too. I don't understand why past is only considered to be in the love life front? Very unfair.
A good friend of mine, just came into the city. His parents have found him a suitable girl to get married to. He likes her too. But he wants me to help him do a background check on her. I out rightly denied. This is one more weird quality about the male species. They can have as many affairs as they want to, but yet prefer a homely, pristine clear, virgin girl. 'Cocktail' is an example of this. The man can lay anything that looks like a girl but if the girl does the same its a loud "No" for marriage. Poor Deepika, though I loved the way she has played her role. It would have been better if she fought for her love without trying to change herself. But why? The Indian audience is not wired to accept such characters. Will gawk at her flawless body in a bikini, but will not think of her as marriage material. Strange.
Life cannot be lived on as a bias. Every soul comes with a history. When we can accept something that happened eons ago, why not the recent past. Make peace with what has happened and you make peace with what comes your way later. Everybody makes mistakes, very few learn from them. Its up to us to decide what we want to be. But no matter what you can't undo them or try to go back into the past to change it. Accept life, and then you start living.