I have been away from blogging for five days now. First because I enjoyed the digital detox of the last week so much that I wanted another break. Second, because I was neck deep in work and other prior commitments along with the continued birthday celebrations and catching up with my best friend. I don't meet her often, but when ever we do meet up there are a lot of conversations and a lot of food. Duh! She is an introvert who hardly talks while I am the one who can jabber non stop. I can talk about anything to anyone. People say that I have the gift of holding on to a conversation while I just think that I can never shut up. But somehow what people say sounds much better. Talking comes naturally to me. I talk to auto drivers, shop keepers, waiters, security guards and almost every one that I run into. And not just a random "Hi" and "Bye". I talk about everything around and it is important to me to keep a conversation going. My husband is just the same, and it has been more than four years since we are together and till date we have never run out of topics to talk about. And I'm sure that we never will also.
Speaking of things that come naturally, I have been blessed with more than one gift. I am a very passionate person and everything that I'm passionate about comes naturally to me. Poetry was a surprise. Honestly, I do not read much of poetry. I love the poems of Aathira and Vinati. Even though I write only rhymed poetry, I love their non-rhymed ones. Maybe because I cannot write them myself. Both these women have so much passion in their words that you cannot help but fall in love with them. Nisha's poetry is a story in motion and I absolutely love it. Her sentences are long and even though she rarely does poetry, the rhymes are impeccable and the context makes so much sense. Pablo Neruda is obviously a favorite, but I do not read his work often. When it comes to writing poetry, I do not refer anything. I see an image prompt and a few words cross my mind and I make a poem out of it. Or I feel an emotion within me and write something about it. Words just flow and thankfully they always tend to rhyme. Maybe I have wired my brain that way, but once I start a piece I am done under twenty minutes. Not gloating, just saying. I surprise myself at times, but then I think that maybe nature intended for it to be that way.
Fiction is not that easy for me. I take time to create characters and bring them together. Random posts of mine are easy as I just have to write what I feel. I would put them under the gift of conversation as well. I can just write about any topic and what I feel about it. Good, bad or ugly. Also I do not care about what people think about me or my writing. This is not called being bold. It is called being myself. I am gifted with the ability to accept the situation and act according to it. I cannot suck up to anyone or depend on anyone. So when I am writing random posts like this, it comes very easily and I am done with it soon. But fiction tires me out. I can read them without blinking, but when I have to write it - it is a weird struggle. I am used to realistic things and actual people. But fiction cannot always be realistic, can it?
Being a mallu, the other thing that I am naturally gifted with is the ability to drink. I love my alcohol and my husband is my perfect companion for a drinking session. We enjoy old monk and coke and I am also a sucker for red wine. I can hold a drink and I am very proud of it. I do not puke, slur or act crazy. It takes a lot of alcohol to hit me and I have not dared to test that threshold. Now that some of you are imaging me to be an alcoholic, let me tell you that I am a social drinker and I love it that way. My husband and I do drink at home once in a while and we enjoy every drop of it. I can hold a drink within myself much better than most men that I know. I always believe that everyone should know how much they can handle. Else they should just not drink. Drinking and creating a scene is such a horrible thing. Shameless actually.
I am also gifted with the art of well, art. I can draw, paint, sketch, doodle effortlessly. I have not had any training as such. Same with tailoring. I used to visit my mom's boutique since I was a child and I noticed how she cuts the fabric and stitches it. Soon, I knew how to do that myself. No, my mother did not have to sit down and explain it to me. I just used my own calculations and learnt how to do it. Today I can design and stitch my own clothes. My husband and mom gifted me a sewing machine for my birthday and I am so thrilled! I cannot wait to start designing my own stuff now. Baking and cooking also comes naturally to me. Having an extremely talented mother helped maybe. But I am not the one to believe in talent alone. It is important to pursue a talent or a passion to succeed in it. Else, there is no point in being naturally gifted.
Some people are naturally gifted with the art of lying. It comes as naturally to them as breathing. If they speak a hundred words, two hundred out of them would be lies. It would have taken them years to pursue and master it. And such people are on top of my annoying list. I can see that they are lying, the proof is right in front of my eyes and yet they lie without flinching. I have caught so many such people red handed and they have nothing else to say. But one should appreciate the confidence with which they lie. Knowing that the other person knows that you are lying and yet going ahead with it, is quite something. Bravery almost. Reminds me, sarcasm is another thing that comes naturally to me.
There are a lot of other things that I wish came naturally to me. Like multitasking. Although I do a good job at it, it gets really difficult at times. I manage the household chores, cooking, cleaning, work, writing, reading, gardening etc. But now since I watch Masterchef, I do not have the time for reading. 'The Palace Of Illusions' is left untouched after six chapters. I absolutely do not have the time for it. I need to learn to multitask better. Also I wish that patience came naturally to me. Over the years I have improved a 200% on it, but there are some people and some talks that I absolutely cannot tolerate. I wish I had the patience to just let it go. But this is not something easy I know, considering the large number of morons we have around.
So tell me what comes naturally to you? Or what do you wish came naturally to you?