Ah what a month this one has been. A month of severe action and non-action. A month of happiness and pain. A month of complacency and adventure. A month of being treated like a queen and yet feeling worthless. If you think that I have gone crazy, then you are not entirely wrong. My birthday month brought with it a lot of unexpected adventures. Some good and some nightmarish. But then you can't just sit back and watch life take a dig at you. You need to fight. Every day and every second. Forever. And so I did. It gave me the strength to bear a lot of things. Pain, emotional outbursts, annoying people and the urge to stay connected all the time. It also taught me a lot of lessons. Something that I'm going to follow forever. I've never been the person who discusses every detail of my life with others. Honestly, I don't even do that with my best friends. As much as an extrovert I am, some things are better left unsaid. The quote above had held good for me in terms of talking in person. But it turns out few people just follow my blog to learn about the intricacies of my life. Yeah, talk about being nosy. And voyeuristic. And jobless.
My blog is my open book and I write about everything that I feel here. Be it some random poetry about a picture that I have seen, a fiction series about some character that refuses to leave my mind or some personal achievement or turmoil in my life. Writing to me is very different from talking to others. But thanks to the intrusions and unnecessary events happening in my life, I have decided that talking about my personal life here has to stop. I have not been the one who cares about what other people think about me and what I do, no matter how close they are to me. But now I have come to believe in the concept of human jinxes and the dirty human eye. I thought it was all bullshit initially, but some how over the past few days it began to make sense somewhere. It may be a coincidence or a random event, but too many random events cannot be termed as a one off thing. Call me foolish, but this is something that I have come to believe in the hardest way possible and I'm going to be sticking to it. Ofcourse there will be posts about my life in general and about the people in it. But nothing too deep. And nothing too vague and shallow either. Damn, turning twenty nine has made me philosophical. And I'm not too sure if I am liking it.
Anyway, I digress. August was one hell of a roller coaster ride for me. But I managed to get back in touch with my reading, thanks to the large amount of time I had free for myself. I was happily progressing with 'The Palace Of Illusions' until 'Mrs Funny Bones' happened. And what an awesome book that was. I have always loved Twinkle Khanna. Yeah, right from her acting days. I find her very pretty, very classy and extremely stylish. Now add witty to that list. She's a gorgeous woman, who is a loving wife and a doting mother. I have been following her columns since their inception and I have loved every bit of it. At one point of time I wanted to cut out all her columns and make a book out of it to read on a boring day. Looks like she read my thought. This book keeps you hooked right from the word go. The A to Z of what she talks about were witty, hilarious and yet made complete sense all the time. The writing style is breezy and effortless. The fact that she can laugh at herself is what makes her a good writer. I'm glad she decided to hang up her boots in the acting department and foray into something this wonderful. I'm not a fan of non-fiction. Infact I don't even remember when was the last time I read one. But this one makes its way to the top my list. And it sure as hell deserves to be there.
Being sick gives you the time to do a lot of things. Unfortunately writing was not one of them as my mind was all over the place. I'm a workaholic. Take my work away from me and I feel like a loser. But the past few days have made me question this belief of mine. Work is important yes. Not more than yourself though. You first, only then comes everything else. Maybe with time I'll get work to be an important part of life and not my whole life. So instead of being plugged to the computer I decided to lean back, have some tender coconut water and watch a few movies instead. 'Do Dhooni Chaar' was on my list since like forever and since the husband had the movie with him, we decided to watch it one fine rainy evening. I absolutely loved the movie! What simple narration and so damn relevant. The middle class has never been portrayed this well before. And Rishi Kapoor was so adorable in the movie, that I just wanted to give him a tight hug. Beautiful concept and an endearing movie. We need more movies like this.
When it comes to movies, I have always been a Hollywood and a Bollywood fan. Regional movies were a complete no no to me. Still are to a large extent. I find some of their execution shoddy and cheap. Being a Malayali, the number of Malayalam movies that I have seen is definitely less than ten. And half of them is what I have seen over the past couple of years. I rediscovered Malayalam cinema through 'Drishyam' and then there was no looking back. The concepts, the execution and narration was far brilliant than most of the recent Bollywood movies. And some Hollywood ones too. I watched 'Bangalore Days', '22 Female Kottayam', 'Mumbai Police', 'Memories', 'Artist' and a few more movies after that. And loved most of them. Malayalam movies are not as bad as I thought them to be. One fine night when I was feeling a tad better, we went out to catch a Kannada movie that was being applauded oflate. I hate watching Kannada movies as it is too bright, too loud and too vulgar at times. The acting and direction included. Same with Tamil cinema. But being a Thalaiva fan, I do not miss any of his movies.
'Rangitaranga' was being spoken about so much on social media that I thought I might as well as watch it. Plus, I was in a desperate need of getting out of home. The movie surprisingly was excellent. My best friend was so shocked that I was actually praising a Kannada movie. The concept was brilliant and the execution was very decent. The good looking hero didn't hurt the eye either. If you are someone who can understand the language then you should watch it. You will not be disappointed. But such movies come once in a while and hopefully a day will come when I shall look forward to watching a Kannada movie. Irrespective of the crazy hype I stayed away from 'Baahubali'. The buzz over it is still tempting though. Maybe when I find a day where I have nothing else to do, I'd go watch it.
Wow, so I wrote three whole paragraphs about movies alone? You must have guessed by now how August was for me then. But do I regret it? Not one bit. These days taught me a lot about life and how situations affect us. It also taught me that it is okay to be a little discreet at times. It gave my body the much needed rest and my mind the much needed calmth. Well, to a certain extent atleast. Looking back at the past month, I would not change a thing. I'm the one who chooses to accept things and fight rather than bask in denial. I know that September is going to be an awesome month. It is Cal's birthday month and my brain cells are already over active planning the day. And this post got longer than I intended it too. With only 8 posts in August, I had a lot to say finally.
How was your August?