Alter Ego

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I clearly am ripped inside

Through the dual life that I lead

One rules my heart forever

For another, I'll gladly bleed

There is no conflict within

What each piece does I'm clear

My heart sings different tunes for both

Thankfully, it is only I who hear

It is not an unpleasant feeling

Happiness I get from them both

Each of them have their own symphony

A chime, a ring and a subtle note

The first lets me be mad and childish

The other wants me to be lady like

I do both of it with perfection

Keeping it separate in my psyche

Is this wrong, I do not know

But I cannot bring myself to choose one

Both hold equal precedence to me

Their thoughts in my mind always run

Can I love two at a time?

This question plagues my heart

The thought of losing either one

Tends to dangerously tear me apart

I hear from them often

Different baritones that fill my soul

Like an elixir it seeps through me

Splitting me and yet making me whole

At times I do ask myself

If these people are actually there

Are they in flesh and blood?

Or do they only exist in my minds lair?

Is this all me, I do not know

These dual feelings continue to grow

Do I even know if this happening?

Or am I just an alter ego?