I clearly am ripped inside
Through the dual life that I lead
One rules my heart forever
For another, I'll gladly bleed
There is no conflict within
What each piece does I'm clear
My heart sings different tunes for both
Thankfully, it is only I who hear
It is not an unpleasant feeling
Happiness I get from them both
Each of them have their own symphony
A chime, a ring and a subtle note
The first lets me be mad and childish
The other wants me to be lady like
I do both of it with perfection
Keeping it separate in my psyche
Is this wrong, I do not know
But I cannot bring myself to choose one
Both hold equal precedence to me
Their thoughts in my mind always run
Can I love two at a time?
This question plagues my heart
The thought of losing either one
Tends to dangerously tear me apart
I hear from them often
Different baritones that fill my soul
Like an elixir it seeps through me
Splitting me and yet making me whole
At times I do ask myself
If these people are actually there
Are they in flesh and blood?
Or do they only exist in my minds lair?
Is this all me, I do not know
These dual feelings continue to grow
Do I even know if this happening?
Or am I just an alter ego?