Balance #WOTY2020

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We're almost a fortnight into 2020 and life is total chaos for me. Work has been squeezing every ounce of energy out of me and my sleep cycle is all over the place. Due to this, my cooking and working out plans are all tossed out of the window. If you know me, you'd know how much this would be bothering me and how much self-doubt I'll be dwelling in. Not a good feeling at all. When I look closely, I see that some of the most important stuff is getting left out. Stuff that you cannot ignore. This only added on to the guilt I was already feeling. I've finally got a grip on my anxiety over the last year, but I could see it returning thanks to all this current chaos.

On the other hand, I finished reading two books within the first ten days of the month. Some days, I managed to cook breakfast, lunch and dinner and some days it was only dinner. Work was going on smoothly as that's an area I would never compromise on. Due to this, my writing suffered. The days I slept well, I overslept and the other days I did not sleep, I continued to be zombie like. A lot of productive work was happening, but there was an imbalance associated with it. When I was contemplating on the word of the year for 2020, there was only one thing that it could be.

So, my word of the year for 2020 is:




Balance. Such a simple word, but laden with weight. Well, literally and otherwise. Ever since I got married, gosh it is almost seven years now, I was under the impression that I was doing a decent job on the so called work-life balance front. Since I do not have a maid at home, all the grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning and other household chores fall on to me. Oh yes, I have a husband who is more than supportive and helpful, but the primary onus is on me. No denying that. Over the years I thought that I had a pretty good grip on it, but turns out that's not the case. I know I am doing a bloody good job at it, but I also know that it can be planned better. I'm someone who has varied interests and passions. I enjoy cooking, baking, reading, writing, sketching, stitching, gardening and the likes. When I pick one, the other gets left behind. I need to find a balance here where I'd be okay with something being left behind. I hope you get the drift.

My word for 2019 was 'Simplify' and it helped me to a large extent. I don't worry too much and I have learnt to not over-complicate stuff. I'm very calm in the head now and have learnt to let go with much ease. I've gotten off the roller coaster called life and I'm walking at my own pace. It is working for me. Whatever I have chosen to keep in my bucket for now, I need to find a balance in that. I need to find a balance on my work-life front. I need to come up with a plan where I can balance my hobbies and enjoy all of them. I need to find a balance in my sleep-workout cycle. I need to find a balance in the biggest and the smallest of things. Because, as much as I try to not worry much about house-hold chores, it just doesn't go away. Maybe it is a woman thing, I'm not sure.

2020 is going to be all about self-growth and finding balance during its course. I know this is what I need the most in my life today and I'm going to put in all I have at stake to get there. Wish me luck!

Balance is my word of the year for 2020. What's yours?

12 comments:

  1. I don't really have a word of the year. But I see why balance is so important in your life. Have you thought about keeping a maid to help out since you are so pressed for time? I really hope that you can find time to indulge in all your passions. Good luck!

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    1. I've been thinking of it, but the idea oh having to depend on someone for your basics and having to wait around for them doesn't go down well on me at all. I'm weird like that.

      Thank you, Rachna.

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  2. Balance is a good WOTY. Wish you the best.

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  3. I can totally understand how you feel when things get left out. My last year was all about accepting that priorities matter and that there will always be somethings that would be left out. Balance is an excellent word, something that would bring peace to your mind as well. Hope things get better at work front. Take care.

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  4. I don't have a WOTY. I like the idea of striking a balance. Like you I also have too many hobbies and like you I end up neglecting one or the other. Hats off to you for managing your home completely on your own.

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    1. I badly need a balance that works for me. I don't care if it is right or wrong, I just want it to work for me.

      Thank you, Tulika.

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  5. Balance is such a beautiful word. It's something I'll need in the near future when routine picks on me. At times, I feel thankful for having people around because I manage to get things done when they spend time with Baby girl.

    You are one busy woman I'll tell you that. I wish you find the balance this year as well as do all you wish to!

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    1. Thank you. I hope you find the right balance when you do.

      I'm crazy busy, yes. And I wouldn't like it any other way :)

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  6. Balance is a wonderful WOTY! And it can sometimes feel like one of the most elusive things, too. I hope you’re able to strike the perfect-for-you balance in 2020, as you juggle all of your interests!

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    1. Thank you, Jini. Nice to see you here after a while :)

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