Its my birthday month. Yay! :D
Today was an eternal down hill with everything possible going wrong. Today I saw how love can exist without trust. How a beautiful face perfectly hides the monster underneath. How a person who hardly mattered is capable of bringing out the tears in you. How blind people can get as long as someone around is pacifying them. How hidden intentions can spoil a relationship. How a single second can crush you down.
What's with trust anyway? Can you love someone and not trust them? Can you trust someone with your life but not love them? Can you believe every word a loved one says? Can he look into my eyes and lie?
No, I did not love him. But it did sting. That's all that was on my mind today. Suddenly the most important person in my life did not seem to matter anymore. It was all about the vague new face. Every breath pierced and every voice burnt. How could he? I can't even blame him, I'm the one who did not want more out of this. Still it is crushing one bone of mine at a time. I don't know what this is, but it really bites. Must have been love.
After all it hurt.
Trying to be as optimistic as I can get, I'm gonna take this in the good way. My birthday is meant to end all the bad things and pave way for the new good ones. The end has begun. Let all the pain, misery, agony and confusions fade to black. I'm sure a stream of colors is waiting to come my way. There is nothing beneath rock bottom anyway. The ray of life has to get reflected back now. I don't see any other way that it can go.