I've been sick again. Have been away from work since the past 2 days. Viral fever they say and I'm stuck the entire day at home with a tissue stuffed up my nose. My immunity system seems to have gone to the dogs, with one health concern following the other. At times I feel that there is someone out there holding a voodoo doll that looks like me and is piercing it with poison tipped pins. Believe me, I know a lot of people capable of doing that.
I'm seriously getting tired of being ill. Its been more than a month and I'm making more visits to the hospitals than I do to the loo. I wouldn't mind the tests, needles or tablets much. The thing I hate the most are the disastrous syrups/tonics that they make me drink. They taste like crap and its a pity that I can't avoid them. I'm literally in tears when I'm asked to take them. 2 spoons from 3 bottles, 3 times a day. There is no God.
So much for the big plans I had for my birthday. Everything seems to be going kaput even before it started. An old flame was successfully extinguished and a new spark died even before I could come to terms with it. Atleast it is settled now, I guess I need to smile for that. My new project is waiting for me, but I'm not able to find the physical strength to get out there and reach for it. The official day is on the 16th, but I had planned on going in early. Like I said, there is no God. Thankfully I hadn't made a commitment. 16th it is then.
My birthday next Monday hardly seems to matter now. I guess I need to concentrate more on getting stronger and healthier. Had read this somewhere, 'Life is what happens to you, when you are busy making other plans'. Huh! Life never fails to amaze me. Every. Single. Time. 4 days for the completion of the 25th year of my life and I'm lying here on my bed just hoping to be able to see the next 25. Of course I will. Man, those pills have been curdling my brain. I planned on writing some poetry, this is all I could manage.
Life is not smooth and straight
Its not always the green grass
We just need to hope and believe
That this too shall pass
Hallucinations. I need to get back to sleep.