I've Learnt

I'm not being cynical,

I'm just being practical;

I don't want another saga,

That could end in a debacle.

Yes, I'm afraid,

To try to love again;

I've learnt to live with it,

Learnt not to live in vain.

I've learnt not to cry,

Not to hope for the unreasonable;

I've learnt to be strong and independent,

I've learnt how to stay stable.

Each blow that I bore,

Has thought me a lot;

I've learnt where to draw the line,

And where to put a full stop.

I've no regrets now,

I've learnt to accept;

I've learnt to block out memories,

Even if I cannot forget.

Currently I don't need anyone,

It might only get messed up more;

When people love me with all their heart,

I too want to love them from my core.

I need sometime,

I want to feel the need to let go;

I've no qualms being alone,

Its only teaching me to grow.

Now, I've learnt to love myself,

Learnt to get bright from dim,

The only thing I now have to learn,

Is how to stop loving him.