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I can't believe you turn eighteen today
I still remember the day I felt you inside me
I was young, rebellious and adventurous
Myself as a mother I couldn't see
I nurtured you for nine whole months
Giving you the best of all that I had
I even grieved for you a little bit
Realizing you would never know your dad
He left after that one night
I don't even have his name
I am too scared to admit this
As I cover my bulging belly in shame
I had to give you up
This was for your own good
I couldn't do anything for you
I wanted you to enjoy your childhood
I found a good family for you
I know that they treat you like their own son
This is the life you deserve, my dear boy
Not like mine, hiding and on the run
I hope you understand why I did this
Also know that I would never forget you
Every year I send you a letter on this day
You are still fresh in my memory like dew
I remember those tiny hands and feet
But today you would be a handsome man
Sometimes I imagine how you look
Dark curly hair, skin with a tan
There will be no more letters, my darling
Now it is time for you to soar and fly
Do try to make your new parents proud
I will be watching from far, with a tear in my eye
Written for Magpie Tales: Mag 308.
That was beautiful, Soumya. Heartbreaking and so touching. I like how you made the poem like a narrative and yet it felt like a poem, too. Giving a baby up must be one of the hardest things and you always wonder about what might have been. Wonderfully written!
ReplyDeleteThank you Cathy!
DeleteSoumya, this is one of the best poems I read from you. Superb. SO many emotions.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Ls.
DeleteOh that is lovely! There is pain, love and hope. Well done!
ReplyDeleteThanks Parul.
DeleteThe letter is saddening from a mother's perspective. Though she wishes him for his future but there is a pain in her heart. I hope she is not leading a lonely life.
ReplyDeleteI hope so too.
DeleteLove the story in poem. Beautifully penned
ReplyDeleteThank you Ami.
DeleteAmazing piece of writing Soumya! Loved this !
ReplyDeleteThank you Anita.
DeleteI could see her whole life in just those few verses. Amazing!
ReplyDeleteThanks Nisha.
DeleteA sad sacrifice to make. Well done.
ReplyDeleteThank you Susan.
DeleteI felt sad for her. I really did :(
ReplyDeleteThat was beautiful and so sad.
ReplyDeleteThanks Tulika.
DeleteI was so sad in the end. You know how to turn words to poems. Beautiful!
ReplyDeleteThank you Pooja!
DeleteHeartbreaking and moving.
ReplyDeleteThank you D!
DeleteBeautiful poem.
ReplyDeleteThank you Jen!
DeleteWow. Such a sad and beautiful poem.
ReplyDeleteThank you Misha!
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