Poison

Writing poetry after a long time. Kind of lost touch so please bear with me if it ain't that good.

You have given me reasons to smile
But the infinite tears dissolve them
We split and so did everything else
When together we were like a gem

You my honey were my life
You were so tender, delicate and kind
But the piercing pain I went through
Somehow put you off my mind

I waited for like a zillion years
But hatred was all you gave me
I was tired of shutting it out
When my eyes wanted love to see

You will always be a part of my life
Something like a distant memory
You will remain a beautiful chapter
When I tell my kids my story

But he was there to dry my tears
To make me laugh when I was down
Him being the arrogant bastard
For me dint mind being a clown

His gigantic ego just goes poof
He makes me feel like a woman and a child
He knows to take care of me when I cry
And to tame me when I act wild

He's the venom that's spread to me
Making me what I am today
I don't regret any part of him
This I shall proudly say

If there is a need, there it is
You just cant evade that fact
Both us being wild and fierce
Are bound by an invisible pact

You were the earth that kept me grounded
He's the cool air that blends with my fire
Dry burnt earth was never pretty
But hot air can evoke deep desire

You're the sweet honey that I loved
But love him I can't and never will
Inspite of this disturbing fact
This damn poison refuses to kill