He had been waiting for the answer for a quite a while now. It was about a week since he had proposed, but I needed time to answer. It was not easy for me as my last relationship had ended badly and I was not in the mood for love. I was not cynical about the feeling, but I wanted to be alone for a while and enjoy the tiny pleasures of life. I had made a list for myself about the things that I can do as a single lady and I wanted to have a check next to all of them. But then he came along and turned my world upside down. It was almost like every puzzle of me was now falling into the right place. It was love, oh yes it was. But was this the right time for it? I was not too sure.
Both of us had just got out of failed relationships and now this was happening. We did not want this to be a rebound and yet the attraction was too hard to ignore. We spent almost every free time together. I had forgotten about the list, but he reminded me about it. He helped me check every one item off the list. It was like he was a part of me that I couldn't live without. He was my aura, he was my shadow. He was all that I wanted. But was it worth making a commitment? I was not too sure.
Relationships are funny. When they last they are magical and beautiful. But when they go down, they take you down with them. The pain takes a time to be forgotten and the wounds seldom heal soon. I had seen a lot of relationships crumbling around me and it scared me. Love is the single most important thing in my life for me. And I knew that I would not be able to handle it if things between us went wrong. He was my best friend, my companion, my soul mate. But was it worth letting go of my fears? I was not too sure.
My idea of marriage was at the age of thirty. I wanted to accomplish a list of things before I settled down into marital bliss. I was only twenty six and the thought of getting married was not seeming right. Almost all my friends were married by then and yet there was something that was troubling me. I had dreams of having a successful blog, writing my own stories and publishing a book. I thought a marriage would mean an end to all my dreams. He did not hold me back from doing any of it. But wasn't I rushing into marriage with this man? I was not too sure.
And then one fine day, just like magic all my questions were answered. You need to test the waters, only when you are unsure of how the water will behave. But when you know that the water is safe for you, you can jump into it with your eyes closed. I had spent a lot of sleepless night thinking about what to answer him. He was the most wonderful man that I had ever met and I knew that letting go off him would be a mistake. Plus, he was patiently waiting for an answer without badgering me too much about it. I realized that there was nothing called the right time. Its about taking the plunge and dealing with it.
When I knew that it was a commitmentphobe who was asking me to marry him, I found it quite funny. His sense of humor lightened all my burdens and suddenly I was left with no questions at all. The fear was now buried somewhere deep never to be surfaced again. And I wondered why was I waiting until thirty to get married. Isn't the right time for marriage when you find the right person? And then, boom! It was all out there in front of me.
I met him that evening in our favorite place and told him a yes. That I would marry him. These words cheered him up so much that I thought there was a light bulb inside him. I had never seen him that happy before and he grabbed me into his arms. Hugging him tight, I realized that this is the best place in the world for me. He told me that those words were the best gift to him ever! And having him in my life was my best gift ever. We have been married for two years now and looking back at that day, we still feel the same.
So this was the day we struck a #DilKiDeal. Literally.
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