19th Jan, 2012

The problem with me is that I'm not used to happiness. But seeing the steady ramp in this particular emotion since a year, I guess its about time I get used to it and learn to bask in it without any doubts and concerns. Starting yesterday, I did it.

This day has been wonderful. The most important day in the whole of my adult life. Reaching a professional high and celebrating the joyous moment with the man I love. Do I need more things to make life perfect?

Being a true bred Lioness I've always dared to do things that people think a billion times before jumping in. After 3 years in a particular domain at work, I decided that this is not what I want to do. I did not want to spend the rest of my life writing spooky code that I give a damn about. Thanks to a blessed tongue, I wanted to do something which has me talking for almost 100% of the time. I just threw away my experience and jumped head first into it. Today, 4 months later as I'm rewarded, I just want to pat myself on my back and walk with my head held more high. This is what I want to do, this is where I want to be.

My first long relationship went kaput, making me cynical about love. I almost gave up, but love is an emotion that fails to elude me. The second one lasted long enough and gave me a new lease of life. But again some things work out and some things don't. The fault lies in the person and not the emotion. I can't believe I almost gave up on it. I still am skeptical about commitment and relationships, but love is something I can't stay away from. Can't help it when I am surrounded by such wonderful people. Today, I have a man by my side who means the world to me. There has only been joy since the minute he stepped into my life. He understands my fears and helps me get over them. He makes me want to use strong words like 'Love' and 'Relationship'. I ain't complaining and the romantic in me lives on.

Life troubles us. We need all the courage and strength to fight it. And most importantly you need to dare.

Dare to hope.

Have faith.


You need to be able to get out of your comfort zone and challenge life's middle finger. You live only once, follow your dreams. Make them come to life. Its not tough.

What goes around, comes around. Karma is a bitch they say, well I'm prepared.

Atleast its gonna be a battle of the equals.

~ Soumya


  1. Congrats on the work thing, the fresh start and the positive air of love around you.

    Love the last 3 lines, they make a lot of sense to me.

    Cheers :)

  2. Hello... good great going... but dear its really hard to read out things.. please change the text setting.. :(

    Weakest Link

  3. sooooooooooo awesome... i need to learn to dare, honestly... teach me please!

  4. Congratulations. And all the best! :)

  5. Love this happiness filled post,hope it stays forever..keep smiling ..wish you luck with the man that meant the world for u :)

  6. Battle of the equals! Well said!
    Enjoy while it lasts! And I pray it lasts a long, long time! :)

    ♥ www.thegirlatfirstavenue.com

  7. I respect your guts lady!
    Not eevryone can forgo the work experience and start something new which they actually love. Fear of failure. But you did it and look how well it rewarded you.
    and as for love, you are blessed. God bless!

  8. Congrats for the success on the work front. Glad you know that you're in a wonderful relationship now and wish you all the happiness in the world!

  9. I love the new found joy and courage.. you deserve every bit of it love.. :)

    Bless you guys :)

  10. Congratulations and stay happy :)
    I love your background. It's lovely. Thanks a ton for your comment :)

  11. This makes me want to stand up and clap for some reason. The way you portray your life, I might convince someone to make a movie out of it. Or even make you the heroine of my book. Serious.

  12. Don't tell me you got into HR after having spent vital years at engineering, did you? :D

    Whatever it is, good, if that makes you happy. And congratulations on the love front. :)

    Blasphemous Aesthete

  13. "You need to be able to get out of your comfort zone and challenge life's middle finger."
    Now that's some attitude, I say.
    Congratulations for all the lovely things that are happening! And all the best for the future!

  14. They say "Open your heart & the world is yours", now I know what does it means. So happy to see you (I even doubt this apprehension is doing justice or not! :P)
    Stay bless. Always! Muaah with power hugs :)

  15. Soumya,

    Read 4 pending posts now. Loved the poem - Touch Me & I will Follow. I feel so glad that you have found happiness and pray that it remains same way all the time for you. May 2012 be just the way you want it to be. And please do not worry about someone being a jinx. Just erase that person from your mind and life.

    Take care

  16. I just remained still for a minute after reading your post. It's as if you read what was in my heart. You darted at the point. It's nice to know that you are such as well. To be precise, exactly how I am. I can never stop loving, neither stop believing in love. It's beautiful. I've always believed that we need to learn before we get to the right one. We need to tear, suffer and undergo emotional rages. Cause, when we're in the arms of the right one, you'll feel it was all worth it, you learned for a better man :)

    So happy for you!

  17. @AS,
    Thank you. The last three lines describe me the best. Thanks and cheers!

    Hello there and thanks.
    The text goes very well with the theme and I don't see much of a problem here. Will try something else soon. I promise :)

    Not tough. Just reach for a peak and jump! You land straight, you win. I did!

    Thank you :)

    Thank you dear :)

    Thanks ;)

    Thank you my dear :)

    Thank you so much.

  18. @Confused Soul,
    Thank you sweetie.

    Thank you and you are welcome. Keep visiting :)

    There's the lady!
    Wow, those are some strong words that you have used. *sniff*. Thanks my dear :)

    Naah naah, just move to functional after 3 years in crappy technical. Engineering and vital? Seriously? :P
    Thank you!

    Thanks a ton!

    Thanks honey, you always do justice to my post with your wonderful comments. Thanks love. *Hugs*

    Thank you Jack.

    Dear lady, you are the best young writer I have come across in recent times. You talk so deep that I'm so awed when I see myself in you. Its like a reflection that I love. Thank you dear :)

  19. Hi Soumya,

    I happened to stumble on your blog from a comment you left on a friend's blog. I read your first post here and I had a big smile on your face.

    Being happy is very difficult to get used to. Only yesterday I saw this little child playing in the park and it made me realize how beautiful a child is because he has no fear. He does not fear happiness.

    I hope our journey takes us to a point where we do not fear happiness anymore.

    I will frequent your blog more often.
    With best wishes,

  20. Totally loved the ending line "Battle of the equals".
    May the true Bitch win *wink*

  21. Well, the problem with you is happiness is not used to be with you. :) So finally into a dream domain you are, aren't you? I wish I had an idea what I want to do. :(
    //The fault lies in the person and not the emotions -This line is..umm..Brilliant !

    P.S. Oh yes, Best luck for your love life :)

  22. Congratulations on your success.

  23. And to add, some people do have the skill and art to get the best out of us. And they are the ones to be treasured.

  24. @Srividya,
    I'm glad I could get a smile on your face. Thanks for visiting :)

    Then I guess we already have a winner ;)

    Hahaha I guess. Yeah dream domain I would say :)
    Thank you :)

    Thank you and I totally agree.

  25. Dear Lioness,
    You have all my respect! This post makes me hopeful about life. Something I lost some time back! Thank you for introducing me to it! :D

  26. @Paanipuri Lover,
    Thank you sweetheart and always hope. Nothing like it :)

  27. Love fails to elude you. You are right about the wonderful people, dear. Very right. I still watch and wait. :D Congratulations on your courage and achievements. :D :D *Hugs*


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