Back into the Womb

(Pic: le Jardin, 1962, by Max Ernst)

Nothing feels safe anymore
I have been to hell and back
I do not want this cruel existence
I'm waiting to fade into black

Beautiful blue waters know my pain
Thoughts wander along the barren sand
Happiness evades me by the second
Unable to produce the magic wand

The lush green trees haunt me
Reminding me of all my crimes
They were seeds a while ago
While I smothered my own chimes

A son they expect from me
Seven daughters I had to kill
My womb has become a cemetery
Trying for an heir to their will

I loved my unborn daughters
Wanted them to see the world
Those around wouldn't let that be
With every birth, abuses were hurled

Arrows are supposed to lead to a way
But for me, they pierce my soul
I'm only a child bearing machine
Confined to a dusty hole

They do not understand my agony
I'm prisoned, until I bear a son
Tied naked to a lone window
This knot can never be undone

It makes me wish I was never born
I want to go back into the womb
If I could have had it my way then
I would have made it my own tomb

Written for The Magpie Tales: Mag 191.

~ Soumya

18 comments:

  1. This is so touching and the feelings come out alive.

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  2. This is brilliant, and so touching!

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  3. I liked the flow in this one. Very touching.

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  4. Beautifully written. Loved it.

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  5. beautifully expressed.
    i want to get back in the womb and make it my own tomb...lovely !

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  6. Painful subject...beautifully expressed...

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  7. OMG! Poignant. Some of the lines are pretty deep depicting the tragedy of lives here.
    "Seven daughters I had to kill
    My womb has become a cemetery
    Trying for an heir to their will" and
    "I'm only a child bearing machine
    Confined to a dusty hole"

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    1. Tragedy still exists, Almost everywhere.

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  8. The parting lines say it all.
    Words woven beautifully for the sad expression.
    *sigh* for this cruelty! :(

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